by Anna Kingsford
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M.D. of Paris; President of the Hermetic Society:
Author
of "The Perfect Way; or the finding of Christ."
Edited by Edward Maitland
Published in New York by Scribner & Welford in 1889
[Written
in 1886. Some of the experiences in this volume were subsequent to that
date. This publication is made in accordance with the author’s
last wishes. (Ed.)] [Page
7 ] I do not know whether
these experiences of mine are unique. So far, I have not yet met with any
one in whom the dreaming faculty appears to be either so strongly or so strangely
developed as in myself. Most dreams, even when of unusual vividness and lucidity,
betray a want of coherence in their action, and an incongruity of detail
and dramatis persona that stamp [Page
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them as the product of incomplete
and disjointed cerebral function. But the most remarkable features of the
experiences I am about to record are the methodical consecutiveness of their
sequences, and the intelligent purpose disclosed alike in the events witnessed
and in the words heard or read. Some of these last, indeed, resemble, for
point and profundity, the apologues of Eastern scriptures; and, on more than
one occasion, the scenery of the dream has accurately portrayed characteristics
of remote regions, city, forest and mountain, which in this existence at
least I have never beheld, nor, so far as I can remember, even heard described,
and yet, every feature of these unfamiliar climes has revealed itself to
my sleeping vision with a splendour of colouring and distinctness of outline
which made the waking life seem duller and less real by contrast. I know
of no parallel to this phenomenon unless in the pages of Bulwer Lytton's
romance entitled — The Pilgrims of the Rhine, in which is related
the story of a German student endowed with so marvellous a faculty of dreaming,
that for him the normal conditions of sleeping and waking became
reversed, his true life was that which he lived in his slumbers, and his
hours of wake-fulness appeared to him as so many uneventful and inactive
intervals of arrest occurring in an existence of intense and vivid interest
which was wholly passed in the hypnotic state. Not that to me there is any
such inversion of natural conditions. On the contrary, the priceless insights
and illuminations I have acquired by means of my dreams have gone far to
elucidate for me many difficulties and enigmas of life, and even of religion,
which might otherwise have remained dark to me, and to throw upon the
events and vicissitudes of a career [Page
9] filled with bewildering situations,
a light which, like sunshine, has penetrated to the very causes and springs
of circumstance, and has given meaning and fitness to much in my life
that would else have appeared to me incoherent or inconsistent. I
have no theory to offer the reader in explanation of my faculty, — at
least in so far as its physiological aspect is concerned. Of course,
having received a medical education, I have speculated about the modus
operandi
of the phenomenon, but my speculations are not of such a character as to
entitle them to presentation in the form even of an hypothesis. I am
tolerably well acquainted with most of the propositions regarding
unconscious cerebration, which have been put forward by men of science,
but none of these propositions can, by any process of reasonable
expansion or modification, be made to fit my case. Hysteria, to the
multiform and manifold categories of which, medical experts are wont to
refer the majority of the abnormal experiences encountered by them, is
plainly inadequate to explain or account for mine. The singular coherence
and sustained dramatic unity observable in these dreams, as well as the
poetic beauty and tender subtlety of the instructions and suggestions
conveyed in them do not comport with the conditions characteristic of
nervous disease. Moreover, during the whole period covered by these
dreams, I have been busily and almost continuously engrossed with
scientific and literary pursuits demanding accurate judgment and complete
self-possession and rectitude of mind. At the time when many of the most
vivid and remarkable visions occurred, I was following my course as a
student at the Paris Faculty of Medicine, preparing for examinations, daily
visiting hospital wards as dresser, and attending lectures. [Page
10] Later,
when I had taken my degree, I was engaged in the duties of my profession
and in writing for the press on scientific subjects. Neither have I ever
taken opium, hashish or other dream-producing agent. A cup of tea or coffee
represents the extent of my indulgences in this direction. I mention these
details in order to guard against inferences which otherwise might be
drawn as to the genesis of my faculty. With regard to the interpretation and application of particular dreams, I
think it best to say nothing. The majority are obviously allegorical, and
although obscure in parts, they are invariably harmonious, and tolerably
clear in meaning to persons acquainted with the method of Greek and
Oriental myth. I shall not, therefore, venture on any explanation of my own,
but shall simply record the dreams as they passed before me, and the
impressions left upon my mind when I awoke. Unfortunately,
in some instances, which are not, therefore, here transcribed, my waking
memory failed to recall accurately, or completely, certain discourses heard
or written words seen in the course of the vision, which in these cases left
but a fragmentary impression on the brain and baffled all waking endeavour
to recall their missing passages. These imperfect experiences have not, however, been numerous; on the
contrary, it is a perpetual marvel to me to find with what ease and certainty
I can, as a rule, on recovering ordinary consciousness, recall the picture
witnessed in my sleep, and reproduce the words I have heard spoken or
seen written. Sometimes several interims of months occur during which none of these
exceptional visions visit me, but only ordinary dreams, incongruous and
insignificant [Page 11] after their kind. Observation, based on an experience
of considerable length, justifies me, I think, in saying that climate, altitude,
and electrical conditions are not without their influence in the production of
the cerebral state necessary to the exercise of the faculty I have described.
Dry air, high levels, and a crisp, calm, exhilarating atmosphere favour its
activity; while, on the other hand, moisture, proximity to rivers, cloudy skies,
and a depressing, heavy climate, will, for an indefinite period, suffice to
repress it altogether. It is not, therefore, surprising that the greater number
of these dreams, and, especially, the most vivid, detailed and idyllic, have
occurred to me while on the continent. At my own residence on the banks
of the Severn, in a humid, low-lying tract of country, I very seldom
experience such manifestations, and sometimes, after a prolonged sojourn
at home, am tempted to fancy that the dreaming gift has left me never to
return. But the results of a visit to Paris or to Switzerland always speedily
reassure me; the necessary magnetic or psychic tension never fails to
reassert itself; and before many weeks have elapsed my Diary is once
more rich with the record of my nightly visions. Some of these phantasmagoria
have furnished me with the framework, and even details, of stories which
from time to time I have contributed to various magazines. A ghost story, [Steepside] published
some years ago in a London magazine, and much commented on because of its
peculiarly weird and startling character, had this origin; so had a fairy
tale, [Beyond
the Sunset] which appeared in a Christmas Annual last
year, and which has recently been re-issued in German by the editor of a
foreign periodical. Many of my more [Page
12] serious contributions to
literature have been similarly initiated; and, more than once, fragments
of poems, both in English and other languages, have been heard or read by
me in dreams. I regret much that I have not yet been able to recover any
one entire poem.
My memory always failed before I could finish writing out the lines, no
matter how luminous and recent the impressions made by them on my
mind.[The poem entitled A Discourse on the Communion
of Souls or the
Uses of love between Creature and Creature, Being a part of the Golden
Book of Venus which forms one of the appendices to The Perfect Way
would be an exception to this rule but that it was necessary for the dream
to be repeated before the whole poem could be recalled. (Ed)] However,
even as regards verses, my experience has been far richer and more
successful than that of Coleridge, the only product of whose faculty in this
direction was the poetical fragment Kubla Khan, and there was no scenic
dreaming on the occasion, only the verses were thus obtained; and I am
not without hope that at some future time, under more favourable
conditions than those I now enjoy, the broken threads may be resumed and
these chapters of dream verse perfected and made complete. It may, perhaps, be worthy of remark that by far the larger number
of the dreams set down in this volume, occurred towards dawn; sometimes even,
after sunrise, during a second sleep. A condition of fasting, united
possibly, with some subtle magnetic or other atmospheric state, seems therefore
to be that most open to impressions of the kind. And, in this connection,
I think it right to add that for the past fifteen years I have been an abstainer
from flesh-meats; not a Vegetarian, because during the whole of that
period I have used such [Page
13] animal produce as butter, cheese, eggs,
and milk. That the influence of fasting and of sober fare upon the
perspicacity of the sleeping brain was known to the ancients in times when
dreams were far more highly esteemed than they now are, appears evident
from various passages in the records of theurgy and mysticism.
Philostratus, in his Life of Apollonius Tyaneus, represents the latter
as informing King Phraotes that " the Oneiropolists, or Interpreters of Visions,
are wont never to interpret any vision till they have first inquired the
time at which it befell; for, if it were early, and of the morning sleep,
they then thought that they might make a good interpretation thereof (that
is, that it might be worth the interpreting), in that the soul was then fitted
for divination, and disincumbered. But if in the first sleep, or near midnight,
while the soul was as yet clouded and drowned in libations, they, being
wise, refused to give any interpretation. Moreover, the gods themselves are
of this opinion, and send their oracles only into abstinent minds. For the
priests, taking him who doth so consult, keep him one day from meat and
three days from wine, that he may in a clear soul receive the oracles." And
again, lamblichus, writing to Agathocles, says: — "There is nothing
unworthy of belief in what you have been told concerning the sacred sleep,
and seeing by means of dreams. I explain it thus: — The soul has a
twofold life, a lower and a higher. In sleep the soul is liberated from the
constraint of the body, and enters, as an emancipated being, on its divine
life of intelligence. Then, as the noble faculty which beholds objects that
truly are — the objects in the world of intelligence — stirs
within, and awakens to its power, who can be astonished that the mind which
contains in itself the principles of [Page
14] all
events, should, in this its state of liberation, discern the future in those
antecedent principles which will constitute that future ? The nobler part
of the mind is thus united by abstraction to higher natures, and becomes
a participant in the wisdom and foreknowledge of the gods. . . . The night-time
of the body is the daytime of the soul." But I have no desire to multiply citations, nor to vex the reader with
hypotheses inappropriate to the design of this little work. Having, therefore,
briefly recounted the facts and circumstances of my experience so far as
they are known to myself, I proceed, without further commentary, to unroll
my chart of dream-pictures, and leave them to tell their own tale. A. B. K.
THE chronicles which I am about to present to the reader are
not the result of any conscious effort of the imagination. They are, as the title-page
indicates, records of dreams, occurring at intervals during the last ten
years, and transcribed, pretty nearly in the order of their occurrence, from
my Diary. Written down as soon as possible after awaking from the
slumber during which they presented themselves, these narratives,
necessarily unstudied in style and wanting in elegance of diction, have at
least the merit of fresh and vivid colour, for they were committed to paper
at a moment when the effect and impress of each successive vision were
strong and forceful in the mind, and before the illusion of reality conveyed
by the scenes witnessed and the sounds heard in sleep had had time to
pass away.
[This
narrative was addressed to the friend particularly referred to in it.
The dream occurred near the close of 1876, and on the eve, therefore, of the
Russo-Turkish war, and was regarded by us both as having relation to
a national crisis, of a moral and spiritual character, our interest in which
was so profound as to be destined to dominate all our subsequent lives and
work (Author’s
Note.)] [Page
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I WAS visited last night by a dream of so strange and vivid a kind that I feel impelled to communicate it to you, not only to relieve my own mind of the impression which the recollection of it causes me, but also to give you an opportunity of finding the meaning, which I am still far too much shaken and terrified to seek for myself.
It seemed to me that you and I were two of a vast company of men and women, upon all of whom, with the exception of myself — for I was there voluntarily — sentence of death had been passed. I was sensible of the knowledge — how obtained I know not — that this terrible doom had been pronounced by the official agents of some new reign of terror. Certain I was that none of the party had really been guilty of any crime deserving of death; but that the penalty had been incurred through [Page 16] their connection with some regime, political, social or religious, which was doomed to utter destruction. It became known among us that the sentence was about to be carried out on a colossal scale; but we remained in absolute ignorance as to the place and method of the intended execution. Thus far my dream gave me no intimation of the horrible scene which next burst on me, — a scene which strained to their utmost tension every sense of sight, hearing and touch, in a manner unprecedented in any dream I have previously had.
It was night, dark and starless, and I found myself, together with the whole company of doomed men and women who knew that they were soon to die, but not how or where, in a railway train hurrying through the darkness to some unknown destination. I sat in a carriage quite at the rear end of the train, in a corner seat, and was leaning out of the open window, peering into the darkness, when, suddenly, a voice, which seemed to speak out of the air, said to me in a low, distinct, intense tone, the mere recollection of which makes me shudder, — "The sentence is being carried out even now. You are all of you lost. Ahead of the train is a frightful precipice of monstrous height, and at its base beats a fathomless sea. The railway ends only with the abyss. Over that will the train hurl itself into annihilation. THERE is NO ONE ON THE ENGINE !"
At this I sprang from my seat in horror, and looked round at the faces of the persons in the carriage with me. No one of them had spoken, or had heard those awful words. The lamplight from the dome of the carriage flickered oN the forms about me. I looked from one to the other, but saw no sign of alarm given by any of them. Then again the voice out of the [Page 17] air spoke to me, — "There is but one way to be saved. You must leap out of the train !"
In frantic haste I pushed open the carriage door and stepped out on the footboard. The train was going at a terrific pace, swaying to and fro as with the passion of its speed; and the mighty wind of its passage beat my hair about my face and tore at my garments.
Until this moment I had not thought of you, or even seemed conscious of your presence in the train. Holding tightly on to the rail by the carriage door, I began to creep along the footboard towards the engine, hoping to find a chance of dropping safely down on the line. Hand over hand I passed along in this way from one carriage to another; and as I did so I saw by the light within each carriage that the passengers had no idea of the fate upon which they were being hurried. At length, in one of the compartments, I saw you. "Come out!" I cried; "come out! Save yourself! In another minute we shall be dashed to pieces !"
You rose instantly, wrenched open the door, and stood beside me outside on the footboard. The rapidity at which we were going was now more fearful than ever. The train rocked as it fled onwards. The wind shrieked as we were carried through it. "Leap down", I cried to you; "save yourself! It is certain death to stay here. Before us is an abyss; and there is no one on the engine!"
At this you turned your face full upon me with a look of intense earnestness, and said, "No, we will not leap down. We will stop the train".
With these words you left me, and crept along the footboard towards the front of the train. Full of half-angry anxiety at what seemed to me a Quixotic act, I followed. [Page 18] In one of the carriages we passed I saw my mother and eldest brother, unconscious as the rest. Presently we reached the last carriage, and saw by the lurid light of the furnace that the voice had spoken truly, and that there was no one on the engine.
You continued to move onwards. "Impossible! Impossible!" I cried; "it cannot be done. O, pray, come away!"
Then you knelt upon the footboard, and said, — "You are right. It cannot be done in that way; but we can save the train. Help me to get these irons asunder".
The
engine was connected with the train by two great iron hooks and staples.
By a tremendous effort, in making which I almost lost my balance, we
unhooked the irons and detached the train; when, with a mighty leap as of
some mad supernatural monster, the engine sped on its way alone, shooting
back as it went a great flaming trail of sparks, and was lost in the darkness.
We stood together on the footboard, watching in silence the gradual slackening
of the speed. When at length the train had come to a standstill, we cried
to the passengers, "Saved ! saved !" and then amid the
confusion of opening the doors and descending and eager talking, my
dream ended, leaving me shattered and palpitating with the horror of it.
LONDON, Nov.
1876
[From another letter to the friend
mentioned in the note appended to the Doomed Train. (Author’s
Note)] [Page
19] "I have the answer
here," he said, tapping his letter-bag, " and
I shall deliver it immediately." [Page
20] I dreamed that I was
in a large room, and there were in it seven persons, all men, sitting at
one long table; and each of them had before him a scroll, some having books
also; and all were grey-headed and bent with age save one, and this
was a youth of about twenty without hair on his face. One of the aged men,
who had his finger on a place in a book open before him, said: I dreamed that I
was wandering along a narrow street of vast length, upon either hand of
which was an unbroken line of high straight houses, their walls and doors
resembling those of a prison. The atmosphere was dense and obscure, and the
time seemed that of twilight; in the narrow line of sky visible far overhead
between the two rows of house-roofs, I could not discern sun, moon, or stars,
or colour of any kind. All was grey, impenetrable, and dim. Under foot, between
the paving-stones of the street, grass was springing. Nowhere was the least
sign of life: the place seemed utterly deserted. I stood alone in the midst
of profound silence and desolation. Silence ? No! As I listened, there
came to my ears from all sides, dully at first and almost imperceptibly,
a low creeping sound like subdued moaning; a sound that never ceased, and
that was so native to the place, I had at first been unaware of it. But now
I clearly gathered in the sound and recognised it as expressive of the intensest
physical suffering. Looking [Page
23] steadfastly towards one of
the houses from which the most distinct of these sounds issued, I perceived
a stream of blood slowly oozing out from beneath the door and trickling
down into the street, staining the tufts of grass red here and there, as
it wound its way towards me. I glanced up and saw that the glass in the
closed and barred windows of the house was flecked and splashed with the
same horrible dye. [This
dream and the next occurred at a moment when it had almost been decided
to relax the rule of privacy until then observed in regard to our psychological
experiences, among other ways, by submitting them to some of the savants
of the Paris Faculté, — a
project of which these dreams at once caused the abandonment. This
was not the only occasion on which a dream bore a twofold aspect,
being a warning or a prediction, according to the heed given to it.
(ED.)]
I dreamt that I
had a beautiful bird in a cage, and that the cage was placed on a table in
a room where there was a cat. I took the bird out of the cage and put him
on the table. Instantly the cat sprang upon [Page
25] him
and seized him in her mouth. I threw myself upon her and strove to wrest
away her prey, loading her with reproaches and bewailing the fate of
my beautiful bird. Then suddenly some one said to me, "You have only
yourself to blame for this misfortune. While the bird remained in his
cage he was safe. Why should you have ' taken him out before the eyes
of the cat ? " A
second time I dreamt, and saw a house built in the midst of a forest.
It was night, and all the rooms of the house were brilliantly illuminated
by lamps. But the strange thing was that the windows were without shutters,
and reached to the ground. In one of the rooms sat an old man counting
money and jewels on a table before him. I stood in the spirit beside him,
and presently heard outside the windows a sound of footsteps and of
men's voices talking together in hushed tones. Then a face peered in at the
lighted room, and I became aware that there were many persons
assembled without in the darkness, watching the old man and his treasure.
He also heard them, and rose from his seat in alarm, clutching his gold and
gems and endeavouring to hide them. " Who are they ? " I asked him. He
answered, his face white with terror; "They are robbers and assassins.
This forest is their haunt. They will murder me, and seize my treasure". "If
this be so", said I, "why did you build your house in the midst of this
forest, and why are there no shutters to the windows ? Are you mad, or [Page
26] a
fool, that you do not know every one can see from without into your lighted
rooms ? " He looked at me with stupid despair. "I never thought of the
shutters", said he. As we stood talking,
the robbers outside congregated in great numbers, and the old man fled from
the room with his treasure bags into another apartment. But this also was
brilliantly illuminated within, and the windows were shutterless. The robbers
followed his movements easily, and so pursued him from room to room all round
the house. Nowhere had he any shelter. Then came the sound of gouge and mallet
and saw, and I knew the assassins were breaking into the house, and that
before long, the owner would have met the death his folly had invited, and
his treasure would pass into the hands of the robbers. I
found myself — accompanied by a guide, a young man of Oriental
aspect and habit — passing through long vistas of trees which,
as we advanced, continually changed in character. Thus we threaded avenues
of English oaks and elms, the foliage of which gave way as we proceeded
to that of warmer and moister climes, and we saw overhead the hanging
masses of broad-leaved palms, and enormous trees whose names I do not
know, spreading their fingered leaves over us like great green hands
in a manner that frightened me. Here also I saw [Page
27] huge grasses which rose over
my shoulders, and through which I had at times to beat my way as through
a sea; and ferns of colossal proportions; with every possible variety
and mode of tree-life and every conceivable shade of green, from the faintest
and clearest yellow to the densest blue-green. One wood in particular I stopped
to admire. It seemed as though every leaf of its trees were of gold, so
intensely yellow was the tint of the foliage. Passing by these
strange figures, we came to a darker part of our course, where the character
of the trees changed and the air felt colder. I perceived that a shadow had
fallen on the way; and looking upwards I found we were passing beneath a
massive roof of dark indigo-coloured pines, which here and there were positively
black in their intensity and depth. Intermingled with them were firs, whose
great, straight stems were covered with lichen and mosses of beautiful variety,
and some looking strangely like green ice-crystals. Presently we came
to a little broken-down rude kind of chapel in the midst of the wood. It
was built of stone; and masses of stone, shapeless and moss-grown, were lying
scattered about on the ground around it. At a little rough-hewn altar within
it stood a Christian priest, blessing the elements. Overhead, the great dark
sprays of the larches and cone-laden firs swept its roof. [Page
28] I sat down to rest on one
of the stones, and looked upwards a while at the foliage. Then turning my
gaze again towards the earth, I saw a vast circle of stones, moss-grown like
that on which I sat, and ranged in a circle such as that of Stonehenge. It
occupied an open space in the midst of the forest; and the grasses and climbing
plants of the place had fastened on the crevices of the stones. One
stone, larger and taller than the rest, stood at the junction of the
circle, in a place of honour, as though it had stood for a symbol of divinity.
I looked at my guide, and said, "Here, at least, is an idol whose semblance
belongs to another type than that of the Hindus." He smiled, and turning
from me to the Christian priest at the altar, said aloud, "Priest, why do
your people receive from sacerdotal hands the bread only, while you yourselves
receive both bread and wine?" And the priest answered, "We receive no
more than they. Yes, though under another form, the people are partakers
with us of the sacred wine with its particle. The blood is the life of the
flesh, and of it the flesh is formed, and without it the flesh could not
consist. The communion is the same". Then
the young man my guide turned again to me and waved his hand towards
the stone before me. And as I looked the stone opened from its summit to
its base; and I saw that the strata within had the form of a tree: and
that every minute crystal of which it was formed, — particles so fine
that grains of sand would have been coarse in comparison with them, — and
every atom composing its mass, were stamped with this same tree-image,
and bore the shape of the ice-crystals, of the ferns and of the colossal
palm-leaves I had seen. And my guide [Page
29] said, "Before
these stones were, the Tree of Life stood in the midst of the Universe". And again we passed
on, leaving behind us the chapel and the circle of stones, the pines and
the firs: and as we went the foliage around us grew more and more stunted
and like that at home. We travelled quickly; but now and then, through breaks
and openings in the woods, I saw solitary oaks standing in the midst of green
spaces, and beneath them kings giving judgment to their peoples, and magistrates
administering laws. At last we came
to a forest of trees so enormous that they made me tremble, to look at them.
The hugeness of their stems gave them an unearthly appearance; for they rose
hundreds of feet from the ground before they burst out far, far above us,
into colossal masses of vast-leaved foliage. I cannot sufficiently convey
the impressions of awe with which the sight of these monster trees inspired
me. There seemed to me something pitiless and phantom-like in the severity
of their enormous bare trunks, stretching on without break or branch into
the distance overhead, and there at length giving birth to a sea of dark
waving plumes, the rustle of which reached my ears as the sound of tossing
waves. Passing
beneath these vast trees we came to others of smaller growth, but still
of the same type, — straight-stemmed, with branching foliage at
their summit. Here we stood to rest, and as we paused I became aware
that the trees around me were losing their colour, and turning by imperceptible
degrees into stone. In nothing was their form or position altered; only a
cold, grey hue overspread them, and the intervening spaces between their
stems became filled up, as though by a cloud which gradually grew
substantial. Presently I raised my eyes, [Page
30] and lo ! overhead were the
arches of a vast cathedral, spanning the sky and hiding it from my sight.
The tree stems had become tall columns of grey stone; and their plumed
tops, the carven architraves and branching spines of Gothic sculpture. The
incense rolled in great dense clouds to their outstretching arms, and,
breaking against them, hung in floating, fragrant wreaths about their carven
sprays. Looking downwards to the altar, I found it covered with flowers and
plants and garlands, in the midst of which stood a great golden crucifix,
and I turned to my guide wishing to question him, but he had disappeared,
and I could not find him. Then a vast crowd of worshippers surrounded me,
a priest before the altar raised the pyx and the patten in his hands. The
people fell on their knees, and bent their heads, as a great field of corn
over which a strong wind passes. I knelt with the rest, and adored with
them in silence.
[On the night previous to this
dream, Mrs Kingsford was awoke by a bright light, and beheld a hand holding
out towards her a glass of foaming ale, the action being accompanied by
the words, spoken with strong emphasis, You must drink this. It
was not her usual beverage, but she occasionally yielded to pressure and
took it when at home. In consequence of the above prohibition she abstained
for that day, and on the following night received this vision, in order
to fit her for which the prohibition had apparently been imposed. It was
originally entitled a Vision of the World’s Fall, on the supposition
that it represented the loss of the Intuition, mystically called the Fall
of the Woman, through
the sorceries of priestcraft. (Ed)] The first consciousness
which broke my sleep last night was one of floating, of being carried swiftly
by some invisible force through a vast space; then, of being gently lowered;
then of light, until, gradually, I found myself on [Page
31] my
feet in a broad noon-day brightness, and before me an open country. Hills,
hills, as far as the eye could reach, — hills with
snow on their tops, and mists around their gorges. This was the first thing
I saw distinctly. Then, casting my eyes towards the ground, I perceived
that all about me lay huge masses of grey material which, at first, I took
for blocks of stone, having the form of lions; but as I looked at them more
intently, my sight grew clearer, and I saw, to my horror, that they were
really alive. A panic seized me, and I tried to runaway; but on turning,
I became suddenly aware that the whole country was filled with these awful
shapes; and the faces of those nearest to me were most dreadful, for their
eyes, and something in the expression, though not in the form, of their
faces, were human. I was absolutely alone in a terrible world peopled
with lions, too, of a monstrous kind. Recovering myself with an effort,
I resumed my flight, but, as I passed through the midst of this concourse
of monsters, it suddenly struck me that they were perfectly unconscious of
my presence. I even laid my hands, in passing, on the heads and manes of
several, but they gave no sign of seeing me or of knowing that I touched
them. At last I gained the threshold of a great pavilion, not, apparently,
built by hands, but formed by Nature. The walls were solid, yet they were
composed of huge trees standing close together, like columns; and [Page
32]
the roof of the pavilion was
formed by their massive foliage, through which not a ray of outer light penetrated.
Such light as there was seemed nebulous, and appeared to rise out of the
ground. In the centre of this pavilion I stood alone, happy to have got clear
away from those terrible beasts and the gaze of their steadfast eyes. As
I stood there, I became conscious of the fact that the nebulous light
of the place was concentrating itself into a focus on the columned wall
opposite to me. It grew there, became intenser, and then spread, revealing,
as it spread, a series of moving pictures that appeared to be scenes
actually enacted before me. For the figures in the pictures were living,
and they moved before my eyes, though I heard neither word nor sound. And
this is what I saw. First there came a writing on the wall of the pavilion: —This
is the History of our World. These words, as I looked
at them, appeared to sink into the wall as they had risen out of it, and
to yield place to the pictures which then began to come out in succession,
dimly at first, then strong and clear as actual scenes. First I beheld a
beautiful woman, with the sweetest face and most perfect form conceivable.
She was dwelling in a cave among the hills with her husband, and he, too,
was beautiful, more like an angel than a man. They seemed perfectly happy
together; and their dwelling was like Paradise. On every side was beauty,
sunlight, and repose. This picture sank into the wall as the writing had
done. And then came out another; the same man and woman driving together
in a sleigh drawn by reindeer over fields of ice; with all about them glaciers
and snow, and great mountains veiled in wreaths of [Page
33] slowly moving mist. The
sleigh went at a rapid pace, and its occupants talked gaily to each other,
so far as I could judge by their smiles and the movement of their lips.
But, what caused me much surprise was that they carried between them, and
actually in their hands, a glowing flame, the fervour of which I felt reflected
from the picture upon my own cheeks. The ice around shone with its brightness.
The mists upon the snow mountains caught its gleam. Yet, strong as were
its light and heat, neither the man nor the woman seemed to be burned or
dazzled by it. This picture, too, the beauty and brilliancy of which greatly
impressed me, sank and disappeared as the former. Next, I saw a terrible
looking man clad in an enchanter's robe, standing alone upon an ice-crag.
In the air above him, poised like a dragon-fly, was an evil spirit, having
a head and face like that of a human being. The rest of it resembled the
tail of a comet, and seemed made of a green fire, which flickered in and
out as though swayed by a wind. And as I looked, suddenly, through an opening
among the hills, I saw the sleigh pass, carrying the beautiful woman and
her husband; and in the same instant the enchanter also saw it, and his face
contracted, and the evil spirit lowered itself and came between me and him.
Then this picture sank and vanished. I next beheld the
same cave in the mountains which I had before seen, and the beautiful couple
together in it. Then a shadow darkened the door of the cave; and the enchanter
was there, asking admittance; cheerfully they bade, him enter, and, as he
came forward with his snake-like eyes fixed on the fair woman, I understood
that he wished to have her for his own, and was even then devising [Page
34] how to bear her away. And
the spirit in the air beside him seemed busy suggesting schemes to this end.
Then this picture melted and became confused, giving place for but a brief
moment to another, in which I saw the enchanter carrying the woman away in
his arms, she struggling and lamenting, her long bright hair streaming behind
her. This scene passed from the wall as though a wind had swept over it,
and there rose up in its place a picture, which impressed me with a more
vivid sense of reality than all the rest. It
represented a market place, in the midst of which was a pile of
faggots and a stake, such as were used formerly for the burning of heretics
and witches. The market place, round which were rows of seats as though for
a concourse of spectators, yet appeared quite deserted. I saw only three
living beings present, — the beautiful woman, the enchanter,
and the evil spirit. Nevertheless, I thought that the seats were really
occupied by invisible tenants, for every now and then there seemed
to be a stir in the atmosphere as of a great multitude; and I had,
moreover, a strange sense of facing many witnesses. The enchanter led
the woman to the stake, fastened her there with iron chains, lit the
faggots about her feet and withdrew to a short distance, where he stood
with his arms folded, looking on as the flames rose about her. I understood
that she had refused his love, and that in his fury he had denounced
her as a sorceress. Then in the fire, above the pile, I saw the evil
spirit poising itself like a fly, and rising and sinking and fluttering
in the thick smoke. While I wondered what this meant, the flames which
had concealed the beautiful woman, parted in their midst, and disclosed
a sight so horrible and unexpected as to thrill me from [Page
35] head
to foot, and curdle my blood. Chained to the stake there stood, not
the fair woman I had seen there a moment before, but a hideous monster, — a
woman still, but a woman with three heads, and three bodies linked
in one. Each of her long arms ended, not in a hand, but in a claw like
that of a bird of rapine. Her hair resembled the locks of the classic
Medusa, and her faces were inexpressibly loathsome. She seemed, with
all her dreadful heads and limbs, to writhe in the flames and yet not
to be consumed by them. She gathered them in to herself; her claws
caught them and drew them down; her triple body appeared to suck the
fire into itself, as though a blast drove it. The sight appalled me.
I covered my face and dared look no more. When at length I
again turned my eyes upon the wall, the picture that had so terrified me
was gone, and instead of it, I saw the enchanter flying through the world,
pursued by the evil spirit and that dreadful woman. Through all the world
they seemed to go. The scenes changed with marvellous rapidity. Now the picture
glowed with the wealth and gorgeousness of the torrid zone; now the ice-fields
of the North rose into view; anon a pine-forest; then a wild sea-shore; but
always the same three flying figures; always the horrible three-formed harpy
pursuing the enchanter, and beside her the evil spirit with the dragon-fly
wings. At last this succession
of images ceased, and I beheld a desolate region, in the midst of which sat
the woman with the enchanter beside her, his head reposing in her lap. Either
the sight of her must have become familiar to him and, so, less horrible,
or she had subjugated him by some spell. At all events, they were mated at
last, and their offspring lay around them on the stony ground, [Page
36] or
moved to and fro. These were lions, — monsters
with human faces, such as I had seen in the beginning of my dream. Their
jaws dripped blood; they paced backwards and forwards, lashing their tails.
Then too, this picture faded and sank into the wall as the others had done.
And through its melting outlines came out again the words I had first seen: — This
is the History of our World, only they seemed to me
in some way changed, but how, I cannot tell. The horror of the whole thing
was too strong upon me to let me dare look longer at the wall. And I awoke,
repeating to myself the question, " How could one woman become three ? " I saw in my sleep
a great table spread upon a beautiful mountain, the distant peaks of which
were covered with snow, and brilliant with a bright light. Around the table
reclined twelve persons, six male, six female, some of whom I recognised
at once, the others afterwards. Those whom I recognised at once were Zeus,
Hera, Pallas Athena, Phoebus Apollo, and Artemis. I knew them by the symbols
they wore. The table was covered with all kinds of fruit, of great size,
including nuts, almonds, and olives, with flat cakes of bread, and cups of
gold into which, before drinking, each divinity poured two sorts of liquid,
one of which was wine, the other water. As I was looking on, standing on
a step a little below the top of the flight which led to the table, I was
startled by seeing Hera suddenly fix her eyes on me and say, [Page
37] " What seest thou at the
lower end of the table ?"
And I looked and answered, "I see two vacant seats". Then she spoke
again and said, " When you are able to eat of our food and to drink of our
cup, you also shall sit and feast with us." Scarcely had she uttered these
words, when Athena, who sat facing me, added, "When you are able to
eat of our food and to drink of our cup, then you shall know as you are
known". And immediately Artemis, whom I knew by the moon upon her
head, continued, " When you are able to eat of our food and to drink of our
cup, all things shall become pure to you, and ye shall be made virgins." Then
I said, "O Immortals, what is your food and your drink, and how does
your banquet differ from ours, seeing that we also eat no flesh, and blood
has no place in our repasts ? " Then
one of the Gods, whom at the time I did not know, but have since
recognised as Hermes, rose from the table, and coming to me put into my
hands a branch of a fig-tree bearing upon it ripe fruit, and said, "If you
would be perfect, and able to know and to do all things, quit the heresy
of Prometheus. Let fire warm and comfort you externally: it is heaven's
gift. But do not wrest it from its rightful purpose, as did that betrayer
of your race, to fill the veins of humanity with its contagion, and to
consume your interior being with its breath. All of you are men of clay,
as was the image which Prometheus made. Ye are nourished with stolen
fire, and it consumes you. Of all the evil uses of heaven's good gifts, none
is so evil as the internal use of fire. For your hot foods and drinks
have consumed and dried up the magnetic power of your nerves, sealed your
senses, and cut short your lives. Now, you neither see nor hear; [Page
38] for
the fire in your organs consumes your senses. Ye are all blind and
deaf, creatures of clay. We have sent you a book to read. Practise
its precepts, and your senses shall be opened." Then,
not yet recognising him, I said, "Tell me your name, Lord." At this
he laughed and answered, "I have been about you from the beginning. I
am the white cloud on the noon-day sky". "Do you, then", I asked, "desire
the whole world to abandon the use of fire in preparing food and drink ? " Instead
of answering my question, he said, "We show you the excellent
way. Two places only are vacant at our table. We have told you all that can
be shown you on the level on which yoU stand. But our perfect gifts, the
fruits of the Tree of Life, are beyond your reach now. We cannot give them
to you until you are purified and have come up higher. The conditions are
GOD'S; the will is with you." These last words
seemed to be repeated from the sky overhead, and again from beneath my feet.
And at the instant I fell, as if shot down like a meteor from a vast height;
and with the swiftness and shock of the fall I awoke. [The
book referred to was a volume entitled Fruit and Bread,
which had been sent anonymously on the previous morning. The fig-tree,
which both with the Hebrews and the Greeks was the type of intuitional
perception, was a special symbol of Hermes, called by the Hebrews Raphael.
The plural used by the seer included myself as the partner of her literary
and other studies. The term virgin in its mystical sense signifies a
soul pure from admixture of matter. Editor] [Page
39] Having fallen asleep last
night while in a state of great perplexity about the care and education
of my daughter, I dreamt as follows. I was walking with
the child along the border of a high cliff, at the foot of which was the
sea. The path was exceedingly narrow, and on the inner side was flanked by
a line of rocks and stones. The outer side was so close to the edge of the
cliff that she was compelled to walk either before or behind me, or else
on the stones. And, as it was unsafe to let go her hand, it was on the stones
that she had to walk, much to her distress. I was in male attire, and carried
a staff in my hand. She wore skirts and had no staff; and every moment she
stumbled or her dress caught and was torn by some jutting crag or bramble.
In this way our progress was being continually interrupted and rendered almost
impossible, when suddenly we came upon a sharp declivity leading to a steep
path which wound down the side of the precipice to the beach below. Looking
down, I saw on the shore beneath the cliff a collection of fishermen's huts,
and groups of men and women on the shingle, mending nets, hauling up boats,
and sorting fish of various kinds. In the midst of the little village stood
a great crucifix of lead, so cast in a mould as to allow me from the elevated
position I occupied behind it, to see that though in front it looked solid,
it was in reality hollow. As I was noting this, a voice of some one close
at hand suddenly addressed me; and on turning my head I found [Page
40] standing
before me a man in the garb of a fisherman, who evidently had just scaled
the steep path leading from the beach. He stretched out his hand to take
the child, saying he had come to fetch her, for that in the path I was
following there was room only for one. "Let her come to us", he added; "she
will do very well as a fisherman's daughter". Being reluctant to part
with her, and not perceiving then the significance of his garb and vocation,
I objected that the calling was a dirty and unsavoury one, and would soil
her hands and dress. Whereupon the man became severe, and seemed to
insist with a kind of authority upon my acceptance of his proposition.
The child, too, was taken with him, and was moreover anxious to leave the
rough and dangerous path; and she accordingly went to him of her own will
and, placing her hand in his, left me without any sign of regret, and I went
on my way alone. Then lifting my eyes to see whither my path led, I
beheld it winding along the edge of the cliff to an apparently endless
distance, until, as I gazed steadily on the extreme limit of my view, I saw
the grey mist from the sea here and there break and roll up into great
masses of slow-drifting cloud, in the intervals of which I caught the white
gleam of sunlit snow. And these intervals continually closed up to open
again in fresh places higher up, disclosing peak upon peak of a range of
mountains of enormous altitude.[Always the symbol of high
mystical insight and spiritual attainment — Biblically called the Hill
of the Lord and
Mount of God (Ed)] By a curious coincidence,
the very morning after this dream, a friend, who knew of my perplexity, called
to [Page
41] recommend a school in a certain
convent as one suitable for my child. There were, however, insuperable
objections to the scheme. Owing to the many
and great difficulties thrown in my way, I had been seriously considering
the advisability of withdrawing, if only for a time, from my course of medical
studies, when I received the following dream, which determined me to persevere:
— I found
myself on the same narrow, rugged, and precipitous path described in my last
dream, and confronted by a lion. Afraid to pass him I turned and fled. On
this the beast gave chase, when finding escape by flight hopeless, I turned
and boldly faced him. Whereupon the lion at once stopped and slunk to the
side of the path, and suffered me to pass unmolested, though I was so close
to him that I could not avoid touching him with my garments in passing. I dreamt that I
was dead, and wanted to take form and appear to C, in order to converse with
him. And it was suggested by those about me — spirits like myself, I suppose
— that I might materialize myself through [Page
42] the medium of some man whom
they indicated to me. Coming to the place where he was, I was directed to
throw myself out forward towards him by an intense concentration of will;
which I accordingly tried to do, but without success, though the effort I
made was enormous. I can only compare it to the attempt made by a person
unable to swim, to fling himself off a platform into deep water. Do all I
would, I could not gather myself up for it; and although encouraged and stimulated,
and assured I had only to let myself go, my attempts were ineffectual. Even
when I had sufficiently collected and prepared myself in one part of my system,
the other part failed me. At length it was
suggested to me that I should find it easier if I first took on me the form
of the medium. This I at length succeeded in doing, and, to my annoyance,
so completely that I materialized myself into the shape not only of his features,
but of his clothing also. The effort requisite for this exhausted me to the
utmost, so that I was unable to keep up the apparition for more than a few
minutes, when I had no choice but to yield to the strain and let myself go
again, only in the opposite way. So I went out, and mounted like a sudden
flame, and saw myself for a moment like a thin streak of white mist rising
in the air; while the comfort and relief I experienced by regaining my light
spirit-condition, were indescribable. It was because I had, for want of skill,
de-materialized myself without sufficient deliberation, that I had thus rapidly
mounted in the air. After an interval
I dreamt that, wishing to see what A would do in case I appeared to him after
my death, I went to him as a spirit and called him by his name. Upon hearing
my voice he rose and went to the window [Page
43]
and looked out uneasily. On my going close to him and speaking in his ear,
he was much disturbed, and ran his hand through his hair and rubbed his
head in a puzzled and by no means pleased manner. At the third attempt to
attract his attention he rushed to the door and, calling for a glass, poured
out some wine, which he drank. On seeing this, and finding him
inaccessible, I desisted, thinking it must often happen to the departed to
be distressed by the inability or unwillingness of those they love to receive
and recognize them. I saw in my sleep
a cart-horse who, coming to me, conversed with me in what seemed a perfectly
simple and natural manner, for it caused me no surprise that he should speak.
And this is what he said: — “Kindness
to animals of the gentler orders is the very foundation of
civilization. For it is the cruelty and harshness of men towards the animals
under their protection which is the cause of the present low standard of
humanity itself. Brutal usage creates brutes; and the ranks of mankind are
constantly recruited from spirits already hardened and depraved by a long
course of ill-treatment. Nothing develops the spirit as much as sympathy.
Nothing cultivates, refines, and aids it in its progress towards perfection
so much as kind and gentle treatment. On the contrary, the brutal usage and
want of sympathy with which we meet at the hands of men, [Page
44] stunt
our development and reverse all the currents of our nature.
We grow coarse with coarseness, vile with reviling, and brutal
with the brutality of those who surround us. And when we pass
out of this stage we enter on the next depraved and hardened,
and with the bent of our dispositions such that we are ready
by our nature to do in our turn that which has been done to
us. The greater number of us, indeed know no other or better
way. For the spirit learns by experience and imitation, and
inclines necessarily to do those things which it has been in
the habit of seeing done. Humanity will never become perfected
until this doctrine is understood and received and made the
rule of conduct.” I dreamed that I
found myself underground in a vault artificially lighted. Tables were ranged
along the walls of the vault, and upon these tables were bound down the living
bodies of half-dissected and mutilated animals. Scientific experts were busy
at work on their victims with scalpel, hot iron and forceps. But, as I looked
at the creatures lying bound before them, they no longer appeared to be mere
rabbits, or hounds, for in each I saw a human shape, the shape of a man,
with limbs and lineaments resembling those of their torturers, hidden within
the outward form. And when they led into the place an old worn-out horse,
crippled with age and long [Page
45] toil
in the service of man, and bound him down, and lacerated his flesh with
their knives, I saw the human form within him stir and writhe as though it
were an unborn babe moving in its mother’s womb. And I cried aloud
—
“Wretches! you are tormenting an unborn man!” But they heard not,
nor could they see what I saw. Then they brought in a white rabbit, and thrust
its eyes through with heated irons. And as I gazed, the rabbit seemed to
me like a tiny infant, with human face, and hands which stretched
themselves towards me in appeal, and lips which sought to cry for help in
human accents. And I could bear no more, but broke forth into a bitter rain
of tears, exclaiming - “O blind! blind” not to see that you torture
a child, the youngest of your own flesh and blood!” And with that I
woke, sobbing vehemently. I dreamed that I
was in Rome with C., and a friend of his called on us there, and asked leave
to introduce to us a young man, a student of art, whose history and condition
were singular. They came together in the evening. In the room where we sat
was a kind of telephonic tube, through which, at intervals, a voice spoke
to me. When the young man entered, these words were spoken in my ear through
the tube: — “You
have made a good many diagnoses lately of [Page
46] cases
of physical disease; here is a curious and interesting
type of spiritual pathology, the like of which is rarely
met with. Question this young man.” Accordingly I did
so, and drew from him that about a year ago he had been seriously ill of
Roman fever; but as he hesitated, and seemed unwilling to speak on the subject,
I questioned the friend. From him I learnt that the young man had formerly
been a very proficient pupil in one of the best-known studios in Rome, but
that a year ago he had suffered from a most terrible attack of malaria, in
consequence of his remaining in Rome to work after others had found it necessary
to go into the country, and that the malady had so affected the nervous system
that since his recovery he had been wholly unlike his former self. His great
aptitude for artistic work, from which so much had been expected, seemed
to have entirely left him; he was no longer master of his pencil; his former
faculty and promise of excellence had vanished. The physician who had attended
him during his illness affirmed that all this was readily accounted for by
the assumption that the malaria had affected the cerebral centers, and in
particular, the nerve-cells of the memory; that such consequences of severe
continuous fever were by no means uncommon, and might last for an indefinite
period. Meanwhile the young man was now, by slow and painful application,
doing his utmost to recover his lost power and skill. Naturally the subject
was distasteful to him, and he shrank from discussing it. Here the voice
again spoke to me through the tube, telling me to observe the young man,
and especially his face. On this I scanned his countenance with attention,
and remarked that it wore a singularly old look, — the look of a man
advanced in years and [Page
47] experience. But that I surmised
to be a not unusual effect of severe fever. “How old do
you suppose the patient to be?” asked
the interrogative voice. “About twenty
years old, I suppose” said
I. “He is a year
old,” rejoined
the voice. “A
year! How can that be?” “If
you will not allow that he is only a year old, then you
must admit that he is sixty-five, for he is certainly either one or the other.” This enigma so perplexed
me, that I begged my invisible informant for the solution of the difficulty,
which was at once vouchsafed in the following terms: — “Here
is the history of your patient. The youth who was the proficient and
gifted student, who astonished his masters, and gave such brilliant indications
of future greatness, is dead. The malaria killed him. But he had
a father, who, while alive, had loved his son as the apple of his eye, and
whose whole being and desire centered in the boy. This father died some
six years ago, about the age of sixty. After his death his devotion to the
youth continued, and as a spirit, he followed him everywhere, never
quitting his side. So entirely was he absorbed in the lad and in his career,
that he made no advance in his own spiritual life, nor, indeed was he fully
aware of the fact that he had himself quitted the earthly plane. For there
are souls which, having been obtuse and dull in their apprehension of spiritual
things during their existence in the flesh, and having neither hopes not
aims beyond the body, are very slow to realize the fact of their dissolution,
and remain, therefore, chained to the earth by earthly affections and interests,
haunting the places or persons they have most affected. [Page
48] But
the young artist was not of this order. Idealist and genius, he was already
highly spiritualized and vitalized even upon earth, and when death rent the
bond between him and his body, he passed at once from the atmosphere
of carnal things into a loftier sphere. But at the moment of his death, the
phantom father was watching beside the son’s sick-bed, and filled with
agony at beholding the wreck of all the brilliant hopes he had cherished
for the boy, thought only of preserving the physical life of that dear body,
since the death of the outward form was still for him the death of all he
had loved. He would cling to it, preserve it, re-animate it at any cost.
The spirit had quitted it; it lay before him a corpse. What, then did the
father do? With a supreme effort of desire, ineffectual indeed to recall
the departed ghost, but potent in its reaction upon himself, he projected
his own vitality into his son’s dead body, re-animated it with his
own soul, and thus effected the resuscitation for which he had so ardently
longed. So the body you now behold is, indeed, the son’s body, the
soul which animates it is that of the father. And it is a year since this
event occurred. Such is the real solution of the problem, whose natural effects
the physician attributes to the result of disease. The spirit which now tenants
this young man’s form had no
knowledge of art when he was so strangely reborn into the world, beyond
the mere rudiments of drawing which he had learned while watching his
son at work during the previous six years. What, therefore seems to the
physician to be a painful recovery of previous aptitude, is, in fact the
imperfect endeavour of a novice entering a new and unsuitable career. “For
the father the experience is by no means an unprofitable one. He would
certainly sooner or later, have [Page
49] resumed
existence upon earth in the flesh, and it is as well that his return
should be under the actual circumstances. The study of art upon which
he has thus entered is likely to prove to him an excellent means of spiritual
education. By means of it his soul may ascend as it has never yet done;
while the habits of the body he now possesses, trained as it is to refined
and gentle modes of life, may do much to accomplish the purgation and
redemption of its new tenant. It
is far better for the father that this strange event should have occurred,
than that he should have remained an earth-bound phantom, unable to realize
his own position, or to rise above the affection which chained him to merely
worldly things.” PARIS, February 21, 1880 I was visited last
night in my sleet by one whom I presently recognized as the famous Adept
and Mystic of the first century of our era, Apollonius of Tyana, called the Pagan
Christ. He was clad in a grey linen robe with
a hood, like that of a monk, and had a smooth, beardless face, and seemed
to be between forty and fifty years of age. He made himself known to me
by asking if I had heard of his lion. [This was a tame captive
lion, in whom Apollonius is said to have recognized the soul of the Egyptian
King Amasis, who had lived 500 years previously. The lion burst into tears
at the recognition, and showed much misery. (Author’s Note.) ] He
commenced by speaking of Metempsychosis, concerning which he informed [Page
50] me
as follows: — “There are two streams or currents, and upward and a
downward one, by which souls are continually passing and repassing as on
a ladder. The carnivorous animals are souls undergoing penance by being
imprisoned for a time in such forms on account of their misdeeds. Have
you not heard the story of my lion?” I said yes, but that I did not
understand it, because I thought it
impossible for a human soul to suffer the degradation of returning into the
body of a lower creature after once attaining humanity. At this he laughed
out, and said that the real degradation was not in the penance but in the
sin. “It
is not by the penance, but by incurring the need of the penance, that the
soul is degraded. The man who sullies his humanity by cruelty or lust, is
already degraded thereby below humanity; and the form which his soul assumes
afterwards assumes is the mere natural consequence of that degradation. He
may again recover humanity, but only by means of passing through another
form than that of the carnivora. When you were told [The
reference is to an instruction received by her four years previously, but
in sleep, and not from Apollonius, though from a source no less transcendental.
(Ed.)] that certain creatures were redeemable or not redeemable,
the meaning was this: They who are redeemable may, on leaving their present
form, return directly into humanity. Their penance accomplished in that form,
and in it, therefore, they are redeemed. But they who are not redeemable,
are they whose sin has been too deep or too ingrained to suffer them to return
until they have passed through other lower forms. They are not redeemable
therein, but will be on ascending again. Others, altogether vile and past
redemption, sink continually lower and lower down the stream, until [Page
51] at
length they burn out. They shall neither be redeemed in the form they now
occupy, nor in any other.” PARIS, May 11, 1880 *** [ Remembering,
on being told this dream, that Eliphas Levi in his Haute
Magie, had described an interview with the phantom of Apollonius, which
he had evoked, I referred to the book, and found that he also saw him with
a smooth-shaven face, but wearing a shroud (linceul) (Ed.)] The
time was drawing towards dawn in a wild and desolate region. And I stood
with my genius at the foot of a mountain the summit of which was hidden
in mist. At a few paces from me stood three persons, clad in splendid
robes and wearing crowns on their heads. Each personage carried a casket
and a key: the three caskets differed from one another, but the keys were
all alike. And my genius said to me, “These are the three
kings of the East, and they journey hither over the river that is dried up,
to go up into the mountain of Sion and rebuild the Temple of the Lord God.”
Then I looked more closely at the three royalties, and I saw that the one
who stood nearest to me on the left hand was a man, and color of his skin
was dark like that of an Indian. And the second was in form like a woman,
and her complexion was fair: and the third had the wings of an Angel, and
carried a staff of gold. And I heard them say one to another, “Brother,
what hast thou in thy casket?” And the first answered, and the King who
bore the aspect of a woman, answered, " I am the carp. “I
am the Stonelayer, [Page
52] and I carry the implements
of my craft; also a bundle of myrrh for thee and for me.”I am the
Carpenter, and I bear the instruments of my craft; also a box of frankincense
for thee and for me.” And the Angel-king
answered, “I am the Measurer, and I carry the secrets of the living
God, and the rod of gold to measure your work withal.” Then the first
said,
“Therefore let us go up into the hill of the Lord and build the walls of
Jerusalem. And they turned to ascend the mountain. But they had not
taken the first step when the king, whose name was Stonelayer, said to him
who was called the Carpenter, “Give me first the implements of thy
craft, and the plan of thy building, that I may know after what sort thou
buildest, and may fashion thereto my masonry.” And the other asked
him, “What
buildest thou, brother?” And he answered, “I build the Outer
Court,” Then
the Carpenter unlocked his casket and gave him a scroll written over in
silver, and a crystal rule, and a carpenter’s plane and a saw. And
the other took them and put them into his casket. Then the Carpenter said
to the Stonelayer, “Brother, give me also the plan of thy building,
and the tools of thy craft. For I build the Inner Place, and must needs
fit my designing to thy foundation.” But the other answered, “Nay,
my brother, for I have promised the laborers. Build thou alone. It is enough
that I know thy secrets; ask not mine of me.” And the Carpenter answered, “How
then shall the Temple of the Lord be built? Are we not of three Ages,
and is the temple yet perfected?” Then the Angel spoke, and said to
the Stonelayer,
“Fear not, brother: freely hast thou received; freely give. For except
thine elder brother had been first a Stonelayer, he [Page
53] could
not now be a Carpenter. Art thou not of Solomon, and he of Christ? Therefore
he hath already handled thy tools, and is of thy craft. And I also, the Measurer,
I know the work of both. But now is that time when the end cometh, and that
which hath been spoken in the ear in closets, the same shall be proclaimed
on the housetops.” Then the first king unlocked his casket, and gave
to the Carpenter a scroll written in red, and a compass and a trowel. But
the Carpenter answered him: “It is enough. I have seen, and I remember.
For this is the writing King Solomon gave into my hands when I also was a
Stonelayer, and when thou wert of the company of them that labor. For I
also am thy Brother, and that thou knowest I know also.” Then the third
king, the Angel, spoke again and said, “Now
is the knowledge perfected and the bond fulfilled. For neither can the Stonelayer
build alone, nor the Carpenter construct apart. Therefore, until this day,
is the Temple of the Lord unbuilt. But now is the time come, and Salem shall
have her habitation on the Hill of the Lord.” And
there came down a mist from the mountain, and out of the mist a star.
And my Genius said, “Thou shalt yet see more on this wise.” But
I saw then only the mist, which filled the valley, and moistened my hair
and my dress; and so I awoke. [ For
the full comprehension of the above dream, it is necessary
to be profoundly versed at once in the esoteric signification of the
Scriptures and in the mysteries of Freemasonry. It was the dreamer’s
great regret that she neither knew, nor could know, the latter,
women being excluded from initiation. (Ed.)] [Page
54] I dreamed
that I sat reading in my study, with books lying about all round me. Suddenly
a voice marvellously clear and silvery, called me by name. Starting up and
turning, I saw behind me a long vista of white marble columns, Greek in architecture,
flanking on either side a gallery of white marble. At the end of this gallery
stood a shape of exceeding brilliancy, the shape of a woman above mortal
height, clad from head to foot in shining mail armor. In her right hand was
a spear, on her left arm a shield. Her brow was hidden by a helmet, and the
aspect of her face was stern, severe even, I thought, I approached her,
and as I went, my body was lifted up from the earth, and I was aware of that
strange sensation of floating above the surface of the ground, which is
so common with me in sleep that at times I can scarce persuade myself after
waking that it has not been a real experience. When I alighted at the end
of the long gallery before the armed woman, she said to me: “Take
off the nightdress thou wearest.” I
looked at my attire and was about to answer — “This is not a nightdress,” when
she added, as though perceiving my thought: — “The woman’s
garb is a nightdress; it is a garment made to sleep in. The man’s garb
is the dress for the day. Look eastward!” I raised my eyes
and, behind the mail-clad shape, I saw the draw breaking, blood-red, and
with great clouds like [Page
55] pillars of smoke rolling
up on either side of the place where the sun was about to rise. But as yet
the sun was not visible. And as I looked, she cried aloud, and her voice
rang through the air like the clash of steel: — “Listen!” And she struck her
spear on the marble pavement. At the same moment there came from afar off,
a confused sound of battle. Cries, and human voices in conflict, and the
stir as of a vast multitude, the distant clang of arms and a noise of the
galloping of many horses rushing furiously over the ground. And then, sudden
silence. Again she smote
the pavement, and again the sounds arose, nearer now, and more tumultuous.
Once more they ceased, and a third time she struck the marble with her spear. Then
the noises arose all about and around the very spot
where we stood, and the clang of the arms was so close that it shook and thrilled
the very columns beside me. And the neighing and snorting of horses,
and the thud of their ponderous hoofs flying over the earth made, as it were,
a wind in my ears, so that it seemed as though a furious battle
were raging all around us. But I could see nothing. Only the sounds increased,
and became so violent that they awoke me, and even after waking I still
seemed to catch the commotion of them in the air. [This
dream was shortly followed by Mrs Kingsford’s anti-vivisection expedition
to Switzerland, the fierce conflict of which amply fulfilled
any predictive significance it may have had.] [Page
56] PARIS, February
15, 1883 I
dreamed I was playing at cards with three persons,
the two opposed to me being a man and a woman with
hoods pulled over their heads, and cloaks covering their persons.
I did not particularly observe them. My partner was
an old man without hood or cloak, and there was about him
this peculiarity, that he did not from one minute
to another appear to remain the same. Sometimes he looked
like a very young man, the features not appearing
to change in order to produce this effect, but an aspect
of youth and even of mirth coming into the face as
though the features were lighted from within. Behind me stood
a personage whom I could not see, for his hand and
arm only appeared, handing me a pack of cards. So far as
I discerned, it was a man’s
figure, habited in black. Shortly after the dream
began, my partner addressed me, saying, “Do
you play by luck or by skill?” I
answered” “I play by luck chiefly; I don’t know how
to play by skill. But I have generally been lucky." In fact I had already, lying
by me, several tricks I
had taken. He answered me: — “To
play by luck is to trust to without; to play by skill is to trust
to within.
In this game, Within goes further than Without.” “What are
trumps?” I
asked. “Diamonds
are trumps,” he
answered. I
looked at the cards in my hand and said to him: — “I have more
clubs than anything else.” [Page
57] I
examined the cards and found something very odd about them. There were
four suits, diamonds, hearts, clubs, and spades. But the picture cards
in my hand seemed different altogether from any I had ever seen before.
One was queen of Clubs, and her face altered as I looked at it. First it
was dark, — almost dusky, — with the imperial crown on the head; then it
seemed quite fair, the crown changing to a smaller one of English aspect,
and the dress also transforming itself. There was a queen of Hearts, too,
in an antique peasant’s gown, with brown hair, and presently this melted
into a suit of armor which shone as if reflecting fire-light in its burnished
scales. The other cards seemed alive likewise, even the ordinary ones, just
like the court-cards. There seemed to be pictures moving inside the emblems
on their faces. The clubs in my hand ran into higher figures than the spades;
these came next in number, and diamonds next. I had no picture-cards of
diamonds, but I had the Ace. And this was so bright I could not look at it.
Except the two queens of Clubs and Hearts I think I had no picture-cards
in my hand, and very few red cards of any kind. There were high figures in
the spades. It was the personage behind my chair who dealt the cards
always. I said to my partner: — “It is difficult to play at all, whether
by luck or by skill, for I get such a bad hand dealt me each time. “That is your
fault,” he said. “Play
your best with what you have, and next time you will get better cards.”[Page
58] “Because
after each game, the tricks you take are added to the bottom of
the pack which the dealer holds, and you get the honors you have taken
up from the table. Play well and take all you can. But you must put more head into
it. You trust too much to fortune. Don’t blame the dealer; he can’t
see.” “I shall lose
this game,” I
said presently, for the two persons playing against us seemed to be taking
up all the cards quickly, and the lead never came
to my turn. “It is because
you don’t count your points before putting down a card,” my
partner said. “If they play high numbers, you must play higher.” “But they
have all the trumps,” I
said. “No,” he
answered, “you have the highest trump of all in your own hand. It
is the first and the last. You may take every card they have with that, for
it is the chief of the whole series. But you have spades too, and high ones.” (He
seemed to know what I had.) “Diamonds
are better than spades,” I answered. “And nearly all my cards
are black ones. Besides, I can’t count, it wants so much thinking.
Can’t
you come over here and play for me?” He
shook his head, and I thought that again he laughed. “No,” he
replied,
“that is against the law of the game. You must play for yourself. Think
it out.” He uttered these
words very emphatically and with so strange an intonation that they dissipated
the rest of the dream, and I remember no more of it. [Page
59] ATCHAM, Dec 7, 1883 Out of a veil of palpitating
mist there arose before me in my sleep the image of a colossal and precipitous
cliff, standing sheer up against a sky of cloud and sea-mist, the tops
of the granite peaks being merged and hidden in the vapor. At the foot
of the precipice beat a wild sea, tossing and flecked with foam; and out
of the flying spray rose sharp splinters of granite, standing like spearheads
about the base of the sold rock. As I looked, something stirred far off
in the distance, like a fly crawling over the smooth crag. Fixing my gaze
upon it I became aware that there was at a great height above the sea,
midway between sky and water, a narrow unprotected footpath winding up
and down irregularly along the side of the mighty cliff; — a slender, sloping
path, horrible to look at, like a rope or a thread stretched midair, hanging
between heaven and the hungry foam. One by one, came towards me along this
awful path a procession of horses, drawing tall narrow carts filled with
bales of merchandise. The horses moved along the edge of the crag as though
they clung to it, their bodies aslant towards the wall of granite on their
right, their legs moving with the precision of creatures feeling and grasping
every step. Like deer they moved, — not like horses, — and as they advanced,
the carts they drew swayed behind them, and I thought every jolt would
hurl them over the precipice. Fascinated I watched, — I could not choose
but watch. At length came a grey horse, not drawing a cart, but carrying
something on his back, — on a pack-saddle apparently. Like the rest he [Page
60] came on stealthily,
sniffing every inch of the terrible way, until, just at the worst and giddiest
point he paused, hesitated, and seemed about to turn. I saw him back
himself into a crouching attitude against the wall of rock behind him,
lowering his haunches, and rearing his head in a strange manner. The idea
flashed on me that he would certainly turn, and then — what could happen?
More horses were advancing, and two beasts could not possibly pass each
other on that narrow ledge! But I was totally unprepared for the ghastly
thing that actually did happen. The miserable horse had been seized with
the awful mountain-madness that sometimes overtakes men on
stupendous heights, — the madness of suicide. With a frightful scream, that
sounded partly like a cry of supreme desperation, partly like one of furious
and frenzied joy, the horse reared himself to his full height on the horrible
ledge, shook his head wildly, and leaped with a frantic spring into the
air, sheer over the precipice, and into the foam beneath. His eyes glared
as he shot into the void, a great dark living mass against the white mist.
Was he speared on those terrible shafts or rock below, or was his life
dashed out in horrible crimson splashes against the cliff-side? Or did
he sink into the reeling swirl of the foaming waters, and die more mercifully
in their steel-dark depths? I could not see. I saw only the flying form
dart through the mist like an arrow from a bow. I head only the appalling
cry, like nothing earthly ever heard before; and I woke in a panic, with
hands tightly clasped, and my body damp with moisture. It was but a dream
— this awful picture; it was gone as an image from a mirror, and I was
awake and gazing only upon blank darkness. [Page
61] ATCHAM, Sept 15,
1884 I
seemed in my vision to be on a long and wearisome journey, and to have arrived
at an Inn, in which I was offered shelter and rest. The apartment given me
consisted of a bedroom and parlor, communicating, and furnished in an antique
manner, everything in the rooms appearing to be worm-eaten, dusty and out
of date. The walls were bare and dingy; there was not a picture or an ornament
in the apartment. An extremely dim light prevailed in the scene; indeed,
I do not clearly remember, whether, with the exception of the fire and a
night-lamp, the rooms were illumined at all. I seated myself in a chair by
the hearth; it was late, and I thought only of rest. But, presently, I became
aware of strange things going on about me. On a table in a corner lay some
papers and a pencil. With a feeling of indescribable horror I saw this pencil
assume an erect position and begin of itself to write on the paper, precisely
as though an invisible hand held and guided it. At the same time, small detonations
sounded in different parts of the room; tiny bright sparks appeared, burst,
and immediately expired in smoke. The pencil having ceased to write, laid
itself gently down, and taking the paper in my hand I found on it a quantity
of writing which at first appeared to me to be in cipher, but I presently
perceived that the words composing as it were written backwards, from right
to left, exactly as one sees writing reflected on a looking glass. What was
written made a [Page
62]
considerable impression on me at the time, but I cannot now recall it, I
know, however, that the dominant feeling I experienced was one of horror. I called the owners
of the inn and related to them what had taken place. They received my statement
with perfect equanimity, and told me that in their house this was the normal
state of things, of which, in fact, they were extremely proud: and they ended
by congratulating me as a visitor much favored by the invisible agencies
of the place. “We
call them our Lights,” they said. “It is true,” I
observed, “that
I saw lights in the air about the room, but they went out instantaneously,
and left only smoke behind them. And why do they write backwards? Who
are They?” As I asked this
question, the pencil on the table rose again, and wrote thus on the paper:
— “ksatonoD” Again
horror seized on me, and the air becoming full of smoke I found it impossible
to breathe. “Let me out!” I cried, “I am stifled here,
— the air is full of smoke!” Outside,
the people of the house answered, “you will lose your way; it is
quite dark, and we have no other rooms to let. And, besides, it is the same
in all the other apartments of the inn.” “But the place
is haunted!” I
cried; and I pushed past them, and burst out of the house. Before the doorway
stood a tall veiled figure, like translucent silver. A sense of reverence
overcame me. The night was balmy, and bright almost as day with resplendent
starlight. The stars seemed to lean out of heaven; they looked down on me
like living eyes, full of [Page
63] a strange
immeasurable sympathy. I crossed the threshold, and stood in the open
plain, breathing with rapture and relief the pure warm air of that delicious
night. How restful, calm, and glorious was the dark landscape, outlined in
purple against the luminous sky ! And what a consciousness of vastness
and immensity above and around me ! " Where am I ? " I cried. The silver figure
stood beside me, and lifted its veil. It was Pallas Athena. "Under the
Stars of the East",
she answered me, " the true eternal Lights of
the World." After
I was awake, a text in the Gospels was vividly brought to my mind: — "There
was no room for them in the Inn." What is this Inn, I wondered,
all the rooms of which are haunted, and in which the Christ cannot be born
? And this open country under the eastern night, — is it not the same
in which they were " abiding," to whom that Birth was first angelically announced
? ***
[ The solution of the enigma was received subsequently
in an instruction, also imparted in sleep, in which it was said, " If
Occultism were all, and held the key of heaven, there would be no need
of Christ."(ED.)] The
following was read by me during sleep, in an
old book printed in archaic type. As with many other things similarly read
by me, I do not know whether it is to be found in any book: — [Page
64] "After
Buddha had been ten years in retirement, certain
sages sent their disciples to him, asking him, — " Ten years afterwards
they sent again to him, asking the same question, and again Buddha answered: —
'
I claim to be nothing.' "Then
after yet another ten years had passed, they
sent a third time, asking, ' What dost thou claim to be, Gautama ?' "And
Buddha replied, ' I claim to be the utterance of the most high God.' " Then
they said to him: ' How is this, that hitherto
thou hast proclaimed thyself to be nothing, and now thou declarest thyself
to be the very utterance of God ?' " Buddha
answered: ' Either I am nothing, or I am the
very utterance of God, for between these two all is silence.'" ATCHAM, March 5,
1885. I dreamt that during
a tour on the Continent with my friend C. we stayed in a town wherein there
was an ancient house of horrible reputation, concerning which we received
the following account. At the top of the house was a suite of rooms, from
which no one who entered at night ever again emerged. No corpse was ever
found; but it was said by some that the victims were absorbed bodily by
the walls; by others that there [Page
65]
were in the rooms a number of pictures in frames, one frame, however,
containing a blank canvas, which had the dreadful power, first, of
fascinating the beholder, and next of drawing him towards it, so that he
was compelled to approach and gaze at it. Then, by the same hideous
enchantment, he was forced to touch it, and the touch was fatal. For the
canvas seized him as a devil-fish seizes its prey, and sucked him in, so
that he perished without leaving a trace of himself, or of the manner of
his death. The legend said further that if any person could succeed in
passing a night in these rooms and in resisting their deadly influence,
the spell would for ever be broken, and no one would thenceforth be sacrificed. Hearing all this,
and being somewhat of the knight-errant order, C. and I determined to face
the danger, and, if possible, deliver the town from the enchantment. We were
assured that the attempt would be vain, for that it had already been many
times made, and the Devils of the place were always triumphant. They had
the power, we were told, of hallucinating the senses of their victims; we
should be subjected to some illusion, and be fatally deceived. Nevertheless,
we were resolved to try what we could do, and in order to acquaint ourselves
with the scene of the ordeal, we visited the place in the daytime. It was
a gloomy-looking building, consisting of several vast rooms, filled with
lumber of old furniture, worm-eaten and decaying; scaffoldings, which seemed
to have been erected for the sake of making repairs and then left; the windows
were curtainless, the floors bare, and rats ran hither and thither among
the rubbish accumulated in the corners. Nothing could possibly look more
desolate and gruesome. We saw no pictures; but as we [Page
66] did not explore every part
of the rooms, they may have been there without our seeing them. We
were further informed by the people of the town that in order to visit
the rooms at night it was necessary to wear a special costume, and that
without it we should have no chance whatever of issuing from them alive.
This costume was of black and white, and each of us was to carry a black
stave. So we put on this attire, — which somewhat resembled the
garb of an ecclesiastical order, — and when the appointed time came,
repaired to the haunted house, where, after toiling up the great staircase
in the darkness, we reached the door of the haunted apartments to find it
closed. But light was plainly visible beneath it, and within was the sound
of voices. This greatly surprised us; but after a short conference we knocked.
The door was presently opened by a servant, dressed as a modern indoor footman
usually is, who civilly asked us to walk in. On entering we found the place
altogether different from what we expected to find, and had found on our
daylight visit. It was brightly lighted, had decorated walls, pretty ornaments,
carpets, and every kind of modern garnishment, and, in short, bore all the
appearance of an ordinary well-appointed private flat. While
we stood in the corridor, astonished, a gentleman in evening dress
advanced towards us from one of the reception rooms. As he looked
interrogatively at us, we thought it best to explain the intrusion, adding
that we presumed we had either entered the wrong house, or stopped at the
wrong apartment. He
laughed pleasantly at our tale, and said, "I don't know anything about
haunted rooms, and, in fact, don't believe in anything of the kind. As for
these rooms, they have for a long time been let for two or three nights [Page
67] every week to our Society
for the purpose of social reunion. We are members of a musical and literary
association, and are in the habit of holding conversaziones in these rooms
on certain evenings, during which we entertain ourselves with dancing, singing,
charades, and literary gossip. The rooms are spacious and lofty, and exactly
adapted to our requirements. As you are here, I may say, in the name of the
rest of the members, that we shall be happy if you will join us." At this
I glanced at our dresses in some confusion, which being observed by the gentleman,
he hastened to say: " You need be under no anxiety about your appearance,
for this is a costume night, and the greater number of our guests are in
travesty." As he spoke he threw open the door of a large drawing-room
and invited us in. On entering we found a company of men and women,
well-dressed, some in ordinary evening attire and some costumed. The
room was brilliantly lighted and beautifully furnished and decorated.
At one end was a grand piano, round which several persons were grouped;
others were seated on ottomans taking tea or coffee; and others strolled
about, talking. Our host, who appeared to be master of the ceremonies,
introduced us to several persons, and we soon became deeply interested
in a conversation on literary subjects. So the evening wore on
pleasantly, but I never ceased to wonder how we could have mistaken the
house or the staircase after the precaution we had taken of visiting it in
the daytime in order to avoid the possibility of error. Presently, being
tired of conversation, I wandered away from the group
with which C. was still engaged, to look at the beautiful decorations of
the great salon, the walls of which were covered with artistic designs in [Page
68]
fresco. Between each couple of
panels, the whole length of the salon, was a beautiful painting, representing
a landscape or a sea-piece. I passed from one to the other, admiring each,
till I had reached the extreme end, and was far away from the rest of the
company, where the lights were not so many or so bright as in the centre.
The last fresco in the series then caught my attention. At first it appeared
to me to be unfinished; and then I observed that there was upon its background
no picture at all, but only a
background of merging tints which seemed to change, and to be now sky,
now sea, now green grass. This empty picture had, moreover, an odd
metallic colouring which fascinated me; and saying to myself " Is there
really any painting on it ? " I mechanically put out my hand and touched
it. On this I was instantly seized by a frightful sensation, a shock that
ran from the tips of my fingers to my brain, and steeped my whole being.
Simultaneously I was aware of an overwhelming sense of sucking and
dragging, which, from my hand and arm, and, as it were, through them,
seemed to possess and envelop my whole person. Face, hair, eyes,
bosom, limbs, every portion of my body was locked in an awful embrace
which, like the vortex of a whirlpool, drew me irresistibly towards the
picture. I felt the hideous impulse clinging over me and sucking me
forwards into the wall. I strove in vain to resist it. My efforts were more
futile than the flutter of gossamer wings. And then there rushed upon my
mind the consciousness that all we had been told about the haunted rooms
was true; that a strong delusion had been cast over us; that all this brilliant
throng of modern ladies and gentlemen were fiends masquerading,
prepared beforehand for our coming; that all the beauty and splendour of
our surroundings were mere glamour; and [Page
69] that
in reality the rooms were those we had seen in the daytime, filled with lumber
and rot and vermin. As I realised all this, and was thrilled with the certainty
of it, a sudden access of strength came to me, and I was impelled, as a last
desperate effort, to turn my back on the awful fresco, and at least to save
my face from coming into contact with it and being glued to its surface.
With a shriek of anguish I wrenched myself round and fell prostrate on the
ground, face downwards, with my back to the wall, feeling as though the
flesh had been torn from my hand and arm. Whether I was saved or not I
knew not. My whole being was overpowered by the realisation of the
deception to which I had succumbed. I had looked for something so
different, — darkness, vacant, deserted rooms, and perhaps a tall,
white, empty canvas in a frame, against which I should have been on my guard.
Who could have anticipated or suspected this cheerful welcome, these
entertaining literati, these innocent-looking frescoes ? Who could
have foreseen so deadly a horror in such a guise? Was I doomed? Should I,
too, be sucked in and absorbed, and perhaps C. after me, knowing nothing
of my fate? I had no voice; I could not warn him; all my force seemed to
have been spent on the single shriek I had uttered as I turned my back on
the wall. I lay prone upon the floor, and knew that I had swooned. And thus, on seeking
me, C. would doubtless have found me, lying insensible among the rubbish,
with the rooms restored to the condition in which we had seen them by day,
my success in withdrawing myself having dissolved the spell and destroyed
the enchantment. But as it was, I awoke from my swoon only to find that I
had been dreaming. [Page
70] The foregoing dream
was almost immediately succeeded by another, in which I dreamt that I was
concerned in a very prominent way in a political struggle in France for liberty
and the people's rights. My part in this struggle was, indeed, the leading
one, but my friend C. had been drawn into it at my instance, and was implicated
in a secondary manner only. The government sought our arrest, and, for
a time, we evaded all attempts to take us, but at last we were surprised
and driven under escort in a private carriage to a military station, where
we were to be detained for examination. With us was arrested a man popularly
known as Fou, a poor
weakling whom I much pitied. When we arrived at the station which
was our destination, Fou gave some trouble to the officials. I think
he fainted, but at all events his conveyance from the carriage to the caserne needed
the conjoined efforts of our escort, and some commotion was caused by
his appearance among the crowd assembled to see us. Clearly the crowd
was sympathetic with us and hostile to the military. I particularly noticed
one woman who pressed forward as Fou was being carried into the station,
and who loudly called on all present to note his feeble condition and the
barbarity of arresting a witless creature such as he. At that moment C. laid
his hand on my arm and whispered: "Now is our time; the guards are all
occupied with Fou; we are left alone for a minute; let us jump out
of the carriage and run !" As he said this [Page
71] he
opened the carriage door on the side opposite to the caserne and
alighted in the street. I instantly followed, and the people favouring us,
we pressed through them and fled at the top of our speed down the road. As
we ran I espied a pathway winding up a hill-side away from the town, and
cried, " Let
us go up there; let us get away from the street!" C. answered, "No, no;
they would see us there immediately at that height, the path is too conspicuous.
Our best safety is to lose ourselves in the town. We may throw them off our
track by winding in and out of the streets." Just then a little child, playing
in the road, got in our way, and nearly threw us down as we ran. We had to
pause a moment to recover ourselves. " That child may have cost us our lives," whispered
C., breathlessly. A second afterwards we reached the bottom of the street
which branched off right and left. I hesitated a moment; then we both
turned to the right. As we did so — in the twinkling of an eye — we
found ourselves in the midst of a group of soldiers coming round the corner.
I ran straight into the arms of one of them, who the same instant knew me
and seized me by throat and waist with a grip of iron. This was a horrible
moment! The iron grasp was sudden and solid as the grip of a vice; the
man's arm held my waist like a bar of steel. " I arrest you !" he cried,
and the soldiers immediately closed round us. At once I realised the
hopelessness of the situation, — the utter futility of resistance. " Vous
n’avez
pas besoin de me tenir ainsi," I said to the officer; "j’irai
tranquillement." He
loosened his hold and we were then marched off to another military station,
in a different part of the town from that whence we had escaped. The man
who had arrested me was a sergeant or some officer [Page
72] in
petty command. He took me alone with him into the guardroom, and placed
before me on a wooden table some papers which he told me to fill in and
sign. Then he sat down opposite to me and I looked through
the papers. They were forms, with blanks left for descriptions specifying
the name, occupation, age, address and so forth of arrested persons. I
signed these, and pushing them across the table to the man, asked him
what was to be done with us. "You will be shot", he replied, quickly and
decisively. "Both of us ? " I asked. "Both", he replied. " But", said
I, "my companion has done nothing to deserve death. He was drawn into
this struggle entirely by me. Consider, too, his advanced age. His
hair is white; he stoops, and, had it not been for the difficulty with which
he moves his limbs, both of us would probably be at this moment in a place
of safety. What can you gain by shooting an old man such as he ? " The
officer was silent. He neither favoured nor discouraged me by his
manner. While I sat awaiting his reply, I glanced at the hand with which
I had just signed the papers, and a sudden idea flashed into my mind. "At
least", I said, "grant me one request. If my companion must die, let
me
die first." Now I made this request for the following reason. In
my right hand, the line of life broke abruptly halfway in its length, indicating
a sudden and violent death. But the point at which it broke was terminated
by a perfectly marked square, extraordinarily clear-cut and distinct.
Such a square, occurring at the end of a broken line means rescue, salvation.
I had long been aware of this strange figuration in my hand, and had often
wondered what it presaged. But now, as once more I looked at it, it came
upon me with sudden conviction that in some way I was [Page
73] destined
to be delivered from death at the last moment, and I thought that if this
be so it would be horrible should C. have been killed first. If I were
to be saved. I should certainly save him also, for my pardon would involve
the pardon of both, or my rescue the rescue of both. Therefore it was important
to provide for his safety until after my fate was decided. The officer seemed
to take this last request into more serious consideration than the first.
He said shortly: " I may be able to manage that for you," and then at once
rose and took up the papers I had signed. " When are we to be shot ? " I
asked him.
"Tomorrow morning", he replied, as promptly as before. Then he went
out, turning the key of the guard-room upon me. The
dawn of the next day broke darkly. It was a terribly stormy day;
great black lurid thunderclouds lay piled along the horizon, and came up
slowly and awfully against the wind. I looked upon them with terror; they
seemed so near the earth, and so like living, watching things. They hung
out of the sky, extending long ghostly arms downwards, and their gloom
and density seemed supernatural. The soldiers took us out, our hands bound
behind us, into a quadrangle at the back of their barracks. The scene is
sharply impressed on my mind. A palisade of two sides of a square, made
of wooden planks, ran round the quadrangle. Behind this palisade, and
pressed up close against it, was a mob of men and women — the people
of the town — come to see the execution. But their faces were sympathetic;
an unmistakable look of mingled grief and rage, not unmixed with
desperation — for they were a down-trodden folk — shone in
the hundreds of eyes turned towards us. [Page
74] I was the only woman among
the condemned. C. was there, and poor Fou, looking bewildered,
and one or two other prisoners. On the third and fourth sides of the quadrangle
was a high wall, and in a certain place was a niche partly enclosing the
trunk of a tree, cut off at the top. An iron ring was driven into the trunk
midway, evidently for the purpose of securing condemned persons for execution.
I guessed it would be used for that now. In the centre of the square piece
of ground stood a file of soldiers, armed with carbines, and an officer
with a drawn sabre. The palisade was guarded by a row of soldiers somewhat
sparsely distributed, certainly not more than a dozen in all. A Catholic
priest in a black cassock walked beside me, and as we were conducted into
the enclosure, he turned to me and offered religious consolation. I declined
his ministrations, but asked him anxiously if he knew which of us was to
die first. You he replied; "the officer in charge of you said
you wished it, and he has been able to accede to your request." Even
then I felt a singular joy at hearing this, though I had no longer any
expectation of release. Death was, I thought, far too near at hand for
that. Just then a soldier approached us, and led me, bareheaded, to the
tree trunk, where he placed me with my back against it, and made fast
my hands behind me with a rope to the iron ring. No bandage was put over
my eyes. I stood thus, facing the file of soldiers in the middle of the
quadrangle, and noticed that the officer with the drawn sabre placed
himself at the extremity of the line, composed of six men. In that supreme
moment I also noticed that their uniform was bright with steel accoutrements.
Their helmets were of steel, and their carbines, as they raised them
and pointed them at me, [Page
75] ready
cocked, glittered in a fitful gleam of sunlight with the same burnished
metal. There was an instant's stillness and hush while the men took aim;
then I saw the officer raise his bared sabre as the signal to fire. It
flashed in the air; then, with a suddenness impossible to convey, the
whole quadrangle blazed with an awful light, — a light so vivid, so intense,
so blinding, so indescribable that everything was blotted out and devoured
by it. It crossed my brain with instantaneous conviction that this amazing
glare was the physical effect of being shot, and that the bullets had pierced
my brain or heart, and caused this frightful sense of all-pervading flame.
Vaguely I remembered having read or having been told that such was the
result produced on the nervous system of a victim to death from firearms. " It
is over", I said, " that
was the bullets". But presently there forced itself on my dazed senses
a sound — a
confusion of sounds — darkness succeeding the white flash — then
steadying itself into gloomy daylight; a tumult; a heap of stricken,
tumbled men lying stone-still before me; a fearful horror upon every
living face; and then ... it all burst on me with distinct conviction.
The storm which had been gathering all the morning had culminated in
its blackest and most electric point immediately overhead. The file of
soldiers appointed to shoot us stood exactly under it. Sparkling with
bright steel on head and breast and carbines, they stood shoulder to
shoulder, a complete lightning conductor, and at the end of the chain
they formed, their officer, at the critical moment, raised his shining,
naked blade towards the sky. Instantaneously heaven opened, and the lightning
fell, attracted by the burnished steel. From blade to carbine, from helmet
to breastplate it ran, smiting every man dead as he stood. [Page
76] They
fell like a row of ninepins, blackened in face and hand in an instant, — in
the twinkling of an eye. Dead. The electric flame licked
the life out of seven men in that second; not one moved a muscle or a
finger again. Then followed a wild scene. The crowd, stupefied for
a minute by the thunderbolt and the horror of the devastation it had
wrought, presently recovered sense, and with a mighty shout hurled itself
against the palisade, burst it, leapt over it and swarmed into the quadrangle,
easily overpowering the unnerved guards. I was surrounded; eager hands
unbound mine; arms were thrown about me; the people roared, and wept,
and triumphed, and fell about me on their knees praising Heaven. I
think rain fell, my face was wet with drops, and my hair, — but
I knew no more, for I swooned and lay unconscious in the arms of the
crowd. My rescue had indeed come, and from the very Heavens!
WAKE, thou that
sleepest! Soul, awake ! Thy light is come,
arise and shine ! For darkness melts,
and dawn divine Doth from the holy
Orient break; Swift-darting down
the shadowy ways And misty deeps
of unborn Time, God's Light, God's
Day, whose perfect prime Is as the light
of seven days. Wake, prophet-soul,
the time draws near, The God who knows within
thee stirs And speaks, for
His thou art, and Hers Who bears the mystic
shield and spear. The hidden secrets
of their shrine Where thou, initiate,
didst adore, Their quickening
finger shall restore And make its glories
newly thine. A touch divine shall
thrill thy brain, Thy soul shall leap
to life, and lo ! What she has known,
again shall know; What she has seen,
shall see again; The
ancient Past through which she came,— A
cloud across a sunset sky,— A
cactus flower of scarlet dye,— A
bird with throat and wings of flame;— [Page
78] A red wild roe,
whose mountain bed Nor ever hound or
hunter knew, Whose flying footprint
dashed the dew In nameless forests,
long since dead. And ever thus in
ceaseless roll The wheels of Destiny
and Time Through changing
form and age and clime Bear onward the
undying Soul: Till now a Sense,
confused and dim, Dawns in a shape
of nobler mould, Less beast, scarce
human; uncontrolled, With free fierce
life in every limb; A savage youth,
in painted gear, Foot fleeter than
the summer wind; Scant speech for
scanty needs designed, Content with sweetheart,
spoil and spear: And, passing thence,
with burning breath, A fiery Soul that
knows no fear, The arméd hosts
of Odin hear Her voice amid the
ranks of death; There, where the
sounds of war are shrill, And clarion shrieks,
and battle roars, Once more set free,
she leaps and soars A Soul of flame,
aspiring still ! Till last, in fairer
shape she stands Where lotos-scented
waters glide, A Theban Priestess,
dusky-eyed, Barefooted on the
golden sands; [Page
79] Or, prostrate, in
the Temple-halls, When Spirits wake,
and mortals sleep, She hears what mighty
Voices sweep Like winds along
the columned walls. A Princess then
beneath the palms Which wave o'er
Afric's burning plains, The blood of Afric
in thy veins, A golden circlet
on thine arms. By sacred Ganges'
sultry tide, With dreamy gaze
and claspéd hands Thou walkst a Seeress
in the lands Where holy Buddha
lived and died. Anon, a sea-bleached
mountain cave Makes shelter for
thee, grave and wan, Thou solemn, solitary
Man, Who, nightly, by
the star-lit wave Invokest with illumined
eyes The steadfast Lords
who rule and wait Beyond the heavens
and Time and fate. Until the perfect
Dawn shall rise, And oracles, through
ages dumb, Shall wake, and
holy forms shall shine On mountain peaks
in light divine, When mortals bid
God's kingdom come ! So turns the wheel
of thy [keen] soul; From birth to birth
her ruling stars, Swift Mercury and
fiery Mars, In ever changing
orbits roll! A
jarring note, a chord amiss — The music's sweeter
after, Like wrangling ended
with a kiss, Or tears, with silver
laughter. The high gods have
no joys like these, So sweet in human
story; No tempest rends
their tranquil seas Beyond the sunset
glory. The whirling wheels
of Time and Fate I thank Thee, Lord,
who hast through devious ways Led me to know Thy
Praise, And to this Wildernesse Hast brought me
out, Thine Israel to blesse. If should faint
with Thirst, or weary, sink, To these my Soule
is Drink, To these the Majick
Rod Is Life, and mine
is hid with Christ in God. [Page
81] Eyes of the dawning
in heaven ? Sparks from the
opening of hell ? Gleams from the
altar-lamps seven ? Can you tell ? Is it the glare
of a fire ? Is it the breaking
of day ? Birth-lights, or
funeral pyre? Who shall say ? Sweet lengths of
shore with sea between, Sweet gleams of
tender blue and green, Sweet wind caressive
and unseen, Soft breathing from
the deep; What joy have I
in all sweet things; How clear and bright
my spirit sings; Rising aloft on
mystic wings; While
sense and body sleep. In some such dream
of grace and light, My soul shall pass
into the sight Of the dear Gods
who in the height Of inward being
dwell; [Page
82] And joyful at Her
perfect feet Whom most of all
I long to greet, My soul shall lie
in meadow sweet All white with asphodel. A DAY or two before Christmas,
a few years since, I found myself compelled by business to leave England
for the Continent. I
am an American, junior partner in a London mercantile house having a
large Swiss connection; and a transaction — needless to specify here — required
immediate and personal supervision abroad, at a season of the year when
I would gladly have kept festival in London with my friends. But my journey
was destined to bring me an adventure of a very remarkable character,
which made me full amends for the loss of Christmas cheer at home. I crossed the Channel
at night from Dover to Calais. The passage was bleak and snowy, and the passengers
were very few. On board the steamboat I remarked one traveller whose appearance
and manner struck me as altogether unusual and interesting, and I deemed
it by no means a disagreeable circumstance that, on arriving at Calais, this
man entered the compartment of the railway carriage in which I had already
seated myself. So far as the dim
light permitted me a glimpse of the [Page
86] stranger's
face, I judged him to be about fifty years of age. The features were delicate
and refined in type, the eyes dark and deep-sunken, but full of intelligence
and thought, and the whole aspect of the man denoted good birth, a nature
given to study and meditation, and a life of much sorrowful experience. Two other travellers
occupied our carriage until Amiens was reached. They then left us, and the
interesting stranger and I remained alone together. " A bitter night", I
said to him, as I drew up the window, " and
the worst of it is yet to come ! The early hours of dawn are always
the coldest". " I suppose so," he
answered in a grave voice. The voice impressed me as strongly as the
face; it was subdued and restrained, the voice of a man undergoing great
mental suffering. " You will find
Paris bleak at this season of the year", I continued, longing to
make him talk. " It was colder there last winter than in London." " I do not stay
in Paris," he replied, " save
to breakfast." "Indeed; that is
my case. I am going on to Bâle." " And I also", he
said, " and
further yet". Then
he turned his face to
the window, and would say no more. My speculations regarding him multipled
with his taciturnity. I felt convinced that he was a man with a romance,
and a desire to know its nature became strong in me. We breakfasted apart
at Paris, but I watched him into his compartment for Bâle, and sprang
in after him. During the first part of our journey we slept; but, as we neared
the Swiss frontier, a spirit of wakefulness took
hold of us, and fitful sentences were exchanged. My companion, it appeared,
intended to [Page
87] rest
but a single day at Bâle.
He was bound for far-away
Alpine regions, ordinarily
visited by tourists during
the summer months only, and,
one would think, impassable
at this season of the year. " And you go alone
? " I asked him. " You
will have no companions to join you?" " I shall have guides", he
answered, and relapsed into meditative silence. Presently
I ventured another question: "You go on business,
perhaps — not on pleasure ? " He
turned his melancholy eyes on mine. "Do I look as if I were travelling
for pleasure's sake ? " he asked gently. I
felt rebuked, and hastened
to apologise. " Pardon
me; I ought not to have
said that. But you interest me greatly, and
I wish, if possible,
to be of service to you. If you are going into Alpine
districts on business and alone,
at this time of the year — " Perhaps
he perceived what was in my mind, for he questioned me in his turn. " And
you — have you business in Bâle
? " " Yes, and in other
places. My accent may have told you my nationality. I travel in the interests
of the American firm, Fletcher Bros., Roy, & Co.,
whose London house, no doubt, you know. But I need remain only twenty-four
hours in Bâle. Afterwards I go to Berne, then to Geneva. I must,
however, wait for letters from England after doing my business at Bâle,
and I shall have some days free." [Page
88] " From
the 21st to the 26th." He was silent for
a minute, meditating. Then he took from his travelling-bag a porte-feullle,
and from the porte-feuille a visiting-card, which he handed
to me. " That is my name," he
said briefly. I took the hint,
and returned the compliment in kind. On his card I read: MR CHARLES DENIS
ST AUBYN, And mine bore the
legend: MR FRANK ROY, Merchants'
Club, W. C. "Now that we are
no longer unknown to each other," said I, " may
I ask, without committing an indiscretion, if I can use the free time
at my disposal in your interests ? " "You are very good,
Mr Roy. It is the characteristic of your nation to be kind-hearted and
readily interested in strangers." Was this sarcastic? I
wondered. Perhaps; but he said it quite courteously. " I am a solitary
and unfortunate man. Before I accept your kindness, will you permit me
to tell you the nature of the journey I am making? It is a strange one." He spoke huskily,
and with evident effort. I assented eagerly. The following, recounted
in broken sentences, and with many abrupt pauses, is the story to which
I listened: Mr St Aubyn was
a widower. His only child, a boy twelve years of age, had been for a year
past afflicted with loss of speech and hearing, the result of a severe [Page
89] typhoid fever, from which
he barely escaped with life. Last summer, his father, following medical
advice, brought him to Switzerland, in the hope that Alpine air, change
of scene, exercise, and the pleasure of the trip, would restore him to
his normal condition. One day father and son, led by a guide, were ascending
a mountain pathway, not ordinarily regarded as dangerous, when the boy,
stepping aside to view the snowy ranges above and around, slipped on a
treacherous fragment of half-detached rock, and went sliding into the ravine
beneath. The height of the fall was by no means great, and the level ground
on which the boy would necessarily alight was overgrown with soft herbage
and long grass, so that neither the father nor the guide at first conceived
any serious apprehensions for the safety of the boy's life or limbs. He
might be bruised, perhaps even a few cuts or a sprained wrist might disable
him for a few days, but they feared nothing worse than these. As quickly
as the slippery ground would permit, they descended the winding path leading
to the meadow, but when they reached it, the boy was nowhere to be seen.
Hours passed in vain and anxious quest; no track, no sound, no clue
assisted the seekers, and the shouts of the guide, if they reached, as
doubtless they did, the spot where the lost boy lay, fell on ears as dull
and deadened as those of a corpse. Nor could the boy, if crippled by his
fall, and unable to show himself, give evidence of his whereabouts by so
much as a single cry. Both tongue and ears were sealed by infirmity, and
any low sound such as that he might have been able to utter would have
been rendered inaudible by the torrent rushing through the ravine hard
by. At nightfall the search was suspended, to be renewed before daybreak
with fresh assistance from the [Page
90] nearest village. Some of
the new-comers spoke of a cave on the slope of the meadow, into which the
boy might have crept. This was easily reached. It was apparently of but
small extent; a few goats reposed in it, but no trace of the child was
discoverable. After some days spent in futile endeavour, all hope was abandoned.
The father returned to England to mourn his lost boy, and another disaster
was added to the annual list of casualties in the Alps. So
far the story was sad
enough, but hardly romantic. I clasped the hand of the narrator, and assured
him warmly of my sympathy, adding, with as little appearance of curiosity
as I could command: — "And your object
in coming back is only, then, to — to — be
near the scene of your great trouble ? " "No, Mr Roy; that
is not the motive of my journey. I do not believe either that my boy's
corpse lies concealed among the grasses of the plateau, or that it was swept
away, as has been suggested, by the mountain cataract. Neither hypothesis
seems to me tenable. The bed of the stream was followed and searched for
miles; and though, when he fell, he was carrying over his shoulder a flask
and a thick fur-lined cloak, — for we expected cold
on the heights, and went provided against it, — not a fragment of
anything belonging to him was found. Had he fallen into the torrent, it
is impossible his clothing should not have become detached from the body
and caught by the innumerable rocks in the shallow parts of the stream.
But that is not all. I have another reason for the belief I cherish." He
leaned forward, and added in firmer and slower tones: " I am convinced
that my boy still lives, for — / have seen him" " You
have seen him !" I cried. [Page
91] Poor father! Poor
desolate man! Not the first driven distraught by grief; not the first deluded
by the shadows of love and longing ! " You think I am
deceived by hallucinations," he said, watching my face. " It
is you who are misled by the scientific idiots of the day, the wiseacres
who teach us to believe, whenever soul speaks to soul, that the highest
and holiest communion attainable by man is the product of physical disease!
Forgive me the energy of my words; but had you loved and lost your
beloved — wife and child — as I have done, you would comprehend
the contempt and anger with which I regard those modern teachers whose
cold and ghastly doctrines give the lie, not only to all human hopes and
aspirations towards the higher life, but also to the possibility of that
very progress from lower to nobler forms which is the basis of their own
philosophy, and to the conception of which the idea of the soul and of
love are essential ! Evolution pre-supposes possible perfecting, and the
conscious adaptation of means to ends in order to attain it. And both the
ideal itself and the endeavour to reach it are incomprehensible without
desire, which is love, and whose seat is in the interior self, the living
soul — the maker of the outward form ! " He was roused from
his melancholy now, and spoke connectedly and with enthusiasm. I was about
to reassure him in regard to my own philosophical convictions, [Page
92] the
soundness of which he seemed to question, when his voice sank again, and
he added earnestly: — " I tell you I have
seen my boy, and that I know he lives, — not in any far-off
sphere beyond the grave, but here on earth, among living men ! Twice
since his loss I have returned from England to seek him, in obedience to
the vision, but in vain, and I have gone back home to dream the same
dream. But — only last week — I heard a wonderful story. It
was told me by a friend who is a great traveller, and who has but just
returned from a lengthened tour in the south. I met him at my club, by
accident,
as unthinking persons say. He told me that there exists, buried away out
of common sight and knowledge, in the bosom of the Swiss Alps, a little
village whose inhabitants possess, in varying degrees, a marvellous and
priceless faculty. Almost all the dwellers in this village are mutually
related, either bearing the same ancestral name, or being branches from
one original stock. The founder of this community was a blind man, who,
by some unexplained good fortune, acquired or became endowed with the
psychic faculty called second sight, or clairvoyance. This faculty,
it appears, is now the hereditary property of the whole village, more
developed in the blind man's immediate heirs than in his remoter relatives;
but, strange to say, it is a faculty which, for a reason connected with
the history of its acquirement, they enjoy only once a year, and that is
on Christmas Eve. I know well," continued Mr St Aubyn, "all you have it
in your mind to say. Doubtless, you would hint to me that the narrator
of the tale was amusing himself with my credulity; or that these Alpine
villagers, if they exist, are not clairvoyants, but charlatans trading
on the [Page
93] folly
of the curious, or even that the whole story is a chimera of my own dreaming
brain. I am willing that, if it please you, you should accept any of these
hypotheses. As for me, in my sorrow and despair, I am resolved to leave
no means untried to recover my boy; and it happens that the village in
question is not far from the scene of the disaster which deprived me of
him. A strange hope — a confidence even — grows in my heart
as I approach the end of my journey. I believe I am about to verify the
truth of my friend's story, and that, through the wonderful faculty possessed
by these Alpine peasants, the promise of my visions will be realized." His voice broke
again, he ceased speaking, and turned his face away from me. I was greatly
moved, and anxious to impress him with a belief in the sincerity of my
sympathy, and in my readiness to accept the truth of the tale he had repeated. "Do not think", I
said with some warmth, " that I am disposed to make light
of what you tell me, strange though it sounds. Out in the West, where I
come from, I heard, when a boy, many a story at least as curious as yours.
In our wild country, odd things chance at times, and queer circumstances,
they say, happen in out of the way tracks in forest and prairie; — aye,
and there are strange creatures that haunt the bush, some tell, in places
where no human foot is wont to tread. So that nothing of this sort comes
upon me with an air of newness, at least! I mayn't quite trust it, as you
do, but I am no scoffer. Look, now, Mr St Aubyn, I have a proposal to make.
You are alone, and purpose undertaking a bitter and, it may be, a perilous
journey in mountain ground at this season. What say you to [Page
94] taking
me along with you ? May be, I shall prove of some use; and at any rate,
your adventure and your story interest me greatly !" I was quite tremulous
with apprehension lest he should refuse my request, but he did not. He
looked earnestly and even fixedly at me for a minute, then silently held
out his hand and grasped mine with energy. It was a sealed compact. After
that we considered ourselves comrades, and continued our journey together. Our
day's rest at Bâle
being over, and the business
which concerned me there
transacted, we followed
the route indicated by
Mr St Aubyn, and on the
evening of the 22nd of
December arrived at a
little hill station,
where we found a guide
who promised to conduct
us the next morning to
the village we sought.
Sunrise found us on our
way, and a tramp of several
weary hours, with occasional
breaks for rest and refreshment,
brought us at last to
the desired spot. It was a quaint,
picturesque little hamlet, embosomed in a mountain recess, a sheltered
oasis in the midst of a wind-swept, snow-covered region. The usual Swiss
trade of wood-carving appeared to be the principal occupation of the community.
The single narrow street was thronged with goats, whose jingling many-toned
bells made an incessant and agreeable symphony. Under the projecting roofs
of the log-built châlets bundles of dried herbs swung in the frosty
air; stacks of fir-wood, handy for use, were piled about the doorways,
and here and there we noticed a huge dog of the St Bernard breed, with
solemn face, and massive paws that left tracks like a lion's in the fresh-fallen
snow. A rosy afternoon-radiance glorified the surrounding mountains and
warmed the aspect of the little village as we entered it. It was not [Page
95] more than three o'clock,
yet already the sun drew near the hill-tops, and in a short space he would
sink behind them and leave the valleys immersed in twilight. Inn or hostelry
proper there was none in this out of the world recess, but the peasants
were right willing to entertain us, and the owner of the largest châlet in
the place speedily made ready the necessary board and lodging. Supper — of
goat's milk cheese, coarse bread, honey, and drink purporting to be coffee — being
concluded, the villagers began to drop in by twos and threes to have a
look at us; and presently, at the invitation of our host, we all drew our
stools around the pine-wood fire, and partook of a strange beverage served
hot with sugar and toast, tasting not unlike elderberry wine. Meanwhile
my English friend, more conversant than myself with the curiously mingled
French and German patois of the district, plunged into the narration
of his trouble, and ended with a frank and pathetic appeal to those present,
that if there were any truth in the tale he had heard regarding the annual
clairvoyance of the villagers, they would consent to use their powers in
his service. Probably they had
never been so appealed to before. When my friend had finished speaking,
silence, broken only by a few half-audible whispers, fell on the group. I
began to fear that, after all, he had been either misinformed or misunderstood,
and was preparing to help him out with an explanation to the best of my ability,
when a man sitting in the chimney-corner rose and said that, if we pleased,
he would fetch the grandsons of the original seer, who would give us the
fullest information possible on the subject of our inquiry. This announcement
was encouraging, and we assented with joy. He left the châlet,
and shortly afterwards returned with two [Page
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and intelligent-looking men of about thirty and thirty-five respectively,
accompanied by a couple of St Bernards, the most magnificent dogs I had
ever seen. I was reassured instantly, for the faces of these two peasants
were certainly not those of rogues or fools. They advanced to the centre
of the assembly, now numbering some twenty persons, men and women, and
were duly introduced to us by our host as Theodor and Augustin Raoul. A
wooden bench by the hearth was accorded them, the great dogs couched
at their feet, pipes were lit here and there among the circle; and the
scene, embellished by the ruddy glow of the flaming pine-logs, the unfamiliar
costume of the peasantry, the quaint furniture of the chalet-kitchen
in which we sat, and enhanced by the strange circumstances of our journey
and the yet stranger story now recounted by the two Raouls, became to my
mind every moment more romantic and unworld-like. But the intent and strained
expression of St Aubyn's features as he bent eagerly forward, hanging as
if for life or death on the words which the brothers poured forth, reminded
me that, in one respect at least, the spectacle before me presented a painful
reality, and that for this desolate and lonely man every word of the
Christmas tale told that evening was pregnant with import of the deepest
and most serious kind. Here, in English guise, is the legend of the Alpine
seer, recounted with much gesticulation and rugged dramatic force by his
grandsons, the younger occasionally interpolating details which the elder
forgot, confirming the data, and echoing with a sonorous interjection the
exclamations of the listeners. Augustin Franz Raoul,
the grandfather of the men who addressed us, originally differed in no
respect, save that [Page
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blindness, from ordinary people. One Christmas Eve, as the day drew towards
twilight, and a driving storm of frozen snow raged over the mountains,
he, his dog Hans, and his mule were fighting their way home up the pass
in the teeth of the tempest. At a turn of the road they came on a priest
carrying the Viaticum to a dying man who inhabited a solitary hut in the
valley below. The priest was on foot, almost spent with fatigue, and bewildered
by the blinding snow which obscured the pathway and grew every moment more
impenetrable and harder to face. The whirling flakes circled and danced
before his sight, the winding path was well-nigh obliterated, his brain
grew dizzy and his feet unsteady, and he felt that without assistance he
should never reach his destination in safety. Blind Raoul, though himself
tired, and longing for shelter, listened with sympathy to the priest's
complaint, and answered, "Father,
you know well I am hardly a pious son of the Church; but if the penitent
dying down yonder needs spiritual consolation from her, Heaven forbid that
I should not do my utmost to help you to him ! Sightless though I am, I
know my way over these crags as no other man knows it, and the snow-storm
which bewilders your eyes so much cannot daze mine. Come, mount my mule,
Hans will go with us, and we three will take you to your journey's end
safe and sound." " Son", answered
the priest, "God
will reward you for this act of charity. The penitent to whom I go
bears an evil reputation as a sorcerer, and we all know his name well enough
in these parts. He may have some crime on his conscience which he desires
to confess before death. But for your timely help I should not be able
to fight my way through this [Page
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to his door, and he would certainly perish unshriven.” The fury of the
storm increased as darkness came on. Dense clouds of snow obscured the
whole landscape, and rendered sky and mountain alike indistinguishable. Terror
seized the priest; but for the blind man, to whose sight day and night
were indifferent, these horrors had no great danger. He and his dumb friends
plodded quietly and slowly on in the accustomed path, and at length, close
upon midnight, the valley was safely reached, and the priest ushered into
the presence of his penitent. What the dying sorcerer's confession was
the blind man never knew; but after it was over, and the Sacred Host had
passed his lips, Raoul was summoned to his bedside, where a strange and solemn
voice greeted him by name and thanked him for the service he had rendered. "Friend", said
the dying man, "you
will never know how great a debt I owe you. But before I pass out of
the world, I would fain do somewhat towards repayment. Sorcerer though
I am by repute, I cannot give you that which, were it possible, I would
give with all my heart, the blessing of physical sight. But may God hear
the last earthly prayer of a dying penitent, and grant you a better gift
and a rarer one than even that of the sight of your outward eyes, by opening
those of your spirit ! And may the faculty of that interior vision
be continued to you and yours so long as ye use it in deeds of mercy and
human kindness such as this !" The speaker laid
his hand a moment on the blind man's forehead, and his lips moved silently
awhile, though Raoul saw it not. The priest and he remained to the last
with the penitent; and when the grey Christmas [Page
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morning broke over the whitened
plain they left the little hut in which the corpse lay, to apprise the
dwellers in the valley hamlet of the death of the wizard, and to arrange
for his burial. And ever since that Christmas Eve, said the two Raouls,
their grandfather found himself when the sacred time came round again,
year after year, possessed of a new and extraordinary power, that of seeing
with the inward senses of the spirit whatever he desired to see, and this
as plainly and distinctly, miles distant, as at his own threshold. The
power of interior vision came upon him in sleep or in trance, precisely
as with the prophets and sybils of old, and in this condition, sometimes
momentary only, whole scenes were flashed before him, the faces of friends
leagues away became visible, and he seemed to touch their hands. At these
times nothing was hidden from him; it was necessary only that he should
desire fervently to see any particular person or place, and that the intent
of the wish should be innocent, and he became straightway clairvoyant.
To the blind man, deprived in early childhood of physical sight, this miraculous
power was an inestimable consolation, and Christmas Eve became to him a
festival of illumination whose annual reminiscences and anticipations brightened
the whole round of the year. And when at length he died, the faculty remained
a family heritage, of which all his descendants partook in some degree,
his two grandsons, as his nearest kin, possessing the gift in its completest
development. And — most strange of all — the two hounds which
lay couched before us by the hearth, appeared to enjoy a share of the sorcerer's
benison ! These dogs, Fritz and Bruno, directly descended from Hans, had
often displayed strong evidence of lucidity, and under its influence they
had been known to [Page
100] act
with acumen and sagacity
wholly beyond the reach of
ordinary dogs. Their immediate
sire, Glück,
was the property of a community
of monks living fourteen
miles distant in the Arblen
valley; and though the Raouls
were not aware that he had
yet distinguished himself
by any remarkable exploit
of a clairvoyant character,
he was commonly credited
with a goodly share of the
family gift. "And the mule ? " I
asked thoughtlessly. "The mule, monsieur", replied
the younger Raoul, with a smile, "has
been dead many long years. Naturally he left no posterity." Thus ended the tale,
and for a brief space all remained silent, while many glances stole furtively
towards St Aubyn. He sat motionless, with bowed head and folded arms, absorbed
in thought. One by one the members
of the group around us rose, knocked the ashes from their pipes, and with
a few brief words quitted the châlet.
In a few minutes there remained only our host, the two Raouls, with their
dogs, my friend, and myself. Then St Aubyn found his voice. He too rose,
and in slow tremulous tones, addressing Theodor, asked, — "You will have
everything prepared for an expedition tomorrow, in case — you should
have anything to tell us?” "All
shall be in readiness,
monsieur. Pierre (the host) will wake you by sunrise, for with the dawn of
Christmas Eve our lucid faculty returns to us, and if we should have good
news to give, the start ought to be made early. We may have far to go, and
the days are short.” He whistled to
the great hounds, wished us good-night, [Page
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two brothers left the house together, followed by Fritz and Bruno. Pierre lighted a
lantern, and mounting a ladder in the corner of the room, invited us to
accompany him. We clambered up this primitive staircase with some difficulty,
and presently found ourselves in a bed-chamber not less quaint and picturesque
than the kitchen below. Our beds were both prepared in this room, round the
walls of which were piled goat's-milk cheeses, dried herbs, sacks of meal,
and other winter provender. Outside it was a
star-lit night, clear, calm, and frosty, with brilliant promise for the
coming day. Long after I was in the land of dreams, I fancy St Aubyn lay
awake, following with restless eyes the stars in their courses, and wondering
whether from some far-off, unknown spot his lost boy might not be watching
them also. Dawn, grey and misty,
enwrapped the little village when I was startled from my sleep by a noisy
chorus of voices and a busy hurrying of footsteps. A moment later some
one, heavily booted, ascended the ladder leading to our bedroom, and a ponderous
knock resounded on our door. St Aubyn sprang from his bed, lifted the latch,
and admitted the younger Raoul, whose beaming eyes and excited manner betrayed,
before he spoke, the good tidings in store. "We have seen him
!" he cried, throwing up his hands triumphantly above
his head. " Both of us have seen your son, monsieur ! Not half an hour
ago, just as the dawn broke, we saw him in a vision, alive and well in
a mountain cave, separated from the valley by a broad torrent. An Angel
of the good Lord has ministered to him: it is a miracle! Courage, he will
be restored to you. Dress quickly, and come down to breakfast. Everything
is ready for the expedition, and there is no time to lose! " These broken ejaculations
were interrupted by the voice of the elder brother, calling from the foot
of the ladder: "Make
haste, messieurs, if
you please. The valley we have seen in our dream is fully twelve miles away,
and to reach it we shall have to cut our way through the snow. It is bad
at this time of the year, and the passes may be blocked ! Come, Augustin
!" Everything was now
hurry and commotion. All the village was astir; the excitement became intense.
From the window we saw men running eagerly towards our châlet with
pickaxes, ropes, hatchets, and other necessary adjuncts of Alpine adventure.
The two great hounds, with others of their breed, were bounding joyfully
about in the snow, and showing, I thought, by their intelligent glances and
impatient behaviour, that they already understood the nature of the intended
day's work. At sunrise we sat
down to a hearty meal, and amid the clamor of voices and rattling of platters,
the elder Raoul unfolded to us his plans for reaching the valley, which both
he and his brother had recognized as the higher level of the Arblen, several
thousand feet above our present altitude, and in mid-winter a perilous place
to visit. "The spot is completely
shut off from the valley by the cataract", said he,
"and last year a landslip blocked up the only route to it from the mountains.
How the child got there is a mystery !" " We must cut our
way over the Thurgau Pass", cried Augustin. "That
is just my idea. Quick
now, if you have [Page
103] finished
eating, call Georges and Albert, and take the ropes with you ! " Our little party
was speedily equipped, and amid the lusty cheers of the men and the sympathetic
murmurs of the women, we passed swiftly through the little snow-carpeted
street and struck into the mountain path. We were six in number, St Aubyn
and myself, the two Raouls, and a couple of villagers carrying the requisite
implements of mountaineering, while the two dogs, Fritz and Bruno, trotted
on before us. At
the outset there was some
rough ground to traverse, and considerable work to be done with ropes and
tools, for the slippery edges of the highland path afforded scarce any foothold,
and in some parts the difficulties appeared well-nigh insurmountable.
But every fresh obstacle overcome added a new zest to our resolution, and,
cheered by the reiterated cry of the two seers, "Courage, messieurs ! Avançons!
The worst will soon be passed !" we
pushed forward with right good will,
and at length found ourselves on a
broad rocky plateau. All this time the
two hounds had taken the lead, pioneering us with amazing skill round precipitous
corners, and springing from crag to crag over the icy ravines with a daring
and precision which curdled my blood to witness. It was a relief to see them
finally descend the narrow pass in safety, and halt beside us panting and
exultant. All around lay glittering reaches of untrodden snow, blinding to
look at, scintillant as diamond dust. We sat down to rest on some scattered
boulders, and gazed with wonder at the magnificent vistas of glowing peaks
towering above us, and the luminous expanse of purple gorge and valley, with
the white, roaring torrents [Page
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below, over which wreaths of
foam-like filmy mist hovered and floated continually. As I sat, lost in
admiration, St Aubyn touched my arm, and silently pointed to Theodor Raoul.
He had risen, and now stood at the edge of the plateau overhanging the lowland
landscape, his head raised, his eyes wide-opened, his whole appearance indicative
of magnetic trance. While we looked he turned slowly towards us, moved his
hands to and fro with a gesture of uncertainty, as though feeling his way
in the dark, and spoke with a slow dreamy utterance: "I see the lad
sitting in the entrance of the cavern, looking out across the valley, as
though expecting some one. He is pallid and thin, and wears a dark-coloured
mantle — a large mantle — lined with sable fur." St Aubyn sprang
from his seat. True !
he exclaimed. " It is the mantle he
was carrying on his arm when he slipped over the pass ! O, thank God for
that; it may have saved his life!" "The place in which
I see your boy", continued the mountaineer, "is fully
three miles distant from the plateau on which we now stand. But I do not
know how to reach it. I cannot discern the track. I am at fault! " He moved
his hands impatiently to and fro, and cried in tones which manifested the
disappointment he felt: "I can see no more! the vision passes from me. I
can discover nothing but confused shapes merged in ever-increasing
darkness !" We gathered round
him in some dismay, and St Aubyn urged the younger Raoul to attempt an elucidation
of the difficulty. But he too failed. The scene in the cave appeared to him
with perfect distinctness; but when he strove to trace the path which should
conduct [Page
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darkness obliterated the vision. "It must be underground," he
said, using the groping action we had already observed on Theodor's part. " It
is impossible to distinguish anything, save a few vague outlines of rock.
Now there is not a glimmer of light; all is profound gloom !" Suddenly, as we
stood discussing the situation, one advising this, another that, a sharp
bark from one of the hounds startled us all, and immediately arrested our
consultation. It was Fritz who had thus interrupted the debate. He was running
excitedly to and fro, sniffing about the edge of the plateau, and every now
and then turning himself with an abrupt jerk, as if seeking something which
eluded him. Presently Bruno joined in this mysterious quest, and the next
moment, to our admiration and amazement, both dogs simultaneously lifted
their heads, their eyes illumined with intelligence and delight, and uttered
a prolonged and joyous cry that reverberated chorus-like from the mountain
wall behind us. "They know ! They
see ! They have the clue ! " cried
the peasants, as the two hounds leapt from the plateau down the steep
declivity leading to the valley, scattering the snow-drifts of the crevices
pell-mell in their headlong career. In frantic haste we resumed our loads,
and hurried after our flying guides with what speed we could. When the dogs
had reached the next level, they paused and waited, standing with uplifted
heads and dripping tongues while we clambered down the gorge to join them.
Again they took the lead; but this time the way was more intricate, and their
progress slower. Single-file we followed them along a narrow winding
track of [Page
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every moment a tiny torrent foamed and tumbled; and as we descended the air
became less keen, the snow rarer, and a few patches of gentian and hardy
plants appeared on the craggy sides of the mountain. Suddenly
a great agitation seized St Aubyn. "Look ! look!" he cried,
clutching me by the arm; " here, where we stand, is the very spot from
which my boy fell! And below yonder is the valley !" Even as he uttered
the words, the dogs halted and came towards us, looking wistfully into St
Aubyn's face, as though they fain would speak to him. We stood still, and
looked down into the green valley, green even in mid-winter, where a score
of goats were browsing in the sunshine. Here my friend would have descended,
but the Raouls bade him trust the leadership of the dogs. " Follow them, monsieur", said
Theodor, impressively; " they
can see, and you cannot. It is the good God that conducts them. Doubtless
they have brought us to this spot to show you they know it, and to inspire
you with confidence in their skill and guidance. See! they are advancing!
On ! do not let us remain behind! Thus urged, we hastened
after our canine guides, who, impelled by the mysterious influence of their
strange faculty, were again pressing forward. This time the track ascended.
Soon we lost sight of the valley, and an hour's upward scrambling over loose
rocks and sharp crags brought us to a chasm, the two edges of which were
separated by a precipitous gulf some twenty feet across. This chasm was probably
about eight or nine hundred feet deep, and its sides were straight and sheer
as those of a well. Our ladders were in requisition, [Page
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these and the ropes, all the members of our party, human and canine, were
safely landed on the opposite brink of the abyss. We
had covered about two miles
of difficult ground beyond the chasm, when once more, on the brow of a
projecting eminence, the hounds halted for the last time, and drew near St
Aubyn, gazing up at him with eloquent exulting eyes, as though they would have
said, " He
whom you seek is
here ! " It was a wild and
desolate spot, strewn with tempest-torn branches, a spot hidden from the
sun by dense masses of pine foliage, and backed by sharp peaks of granite.
St Aubyn looked around him, trembling with emotion. "Shout", cried
one of the peasants; " shout,
the boy may hear you ! " "Alas", answered
the father, "he
cannot hear; you forget that my child is deaf and dumb !" At that instant,
Theodor, who for a brief while had stood apart, abstracted and silent, approached
St Aubyn and grasped his hand. "Shout!" repeated
he, with the earnestness of a command; " call
your boy by his name ! " St Aubyn looked
at him with astonishment; then in a clear piercing voice obeyed. "Charlie!" he
cried; "Charlie, my boy ! where are you ? " We stood around
him in dread silence and expectancy, a group for a picture. St Aubyn in the
midst, with white quivering face and clasped hands, the two Raouls on either
side, listening intently, the dogs motionless and eager, their ears erect,
their hair bristling round their stretched throats. You might have heard
a pin drop on [Page
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rock at our feet, as we stood and waited after that cry. A minute passed
thus, and then there was heard from below, at a great depth, a faint uncertain
sound. One word only — uttered in the voice of a child, tremulous,
and intensely earnest: "
Father ! " St
Aubyn fell on his knees. "My God ! my God !" he cried, sobbing; "it
is my boy ! He is alive, and can hear and speak !" With feverish haste
we descended the crag, and speedily found ourselves on a green sward, sheltered
on three sides by high walls of cliff, and bounded on the fourth, southward,
by a rushing stream some thirty feet from shore to shore. Beyond the stream
was a wide expanse of pasture stretching down into the Arblen valley. Again St Aubyn shouted,
and again the child-like cry replied, guiding us to a narrow gorge or fissure
in the cliff almost hidden under exuberant foliage. This passage brought
us to a turfy knoll, upon which opened a deep recess in the mountain rock;
a picturesque cavern, carpeted with moss, and showing, from some ancient,
half obliterated carvings which here and there adorned its walls, that It
had once served as a crypt or chapel, possibly in some time of ecclesiastical
persecution. At the mouth of this cave, with startled eyes and pallid parted
lips, stood a fair-haired lad, wrapped in the mantle described by the elder
Raoul. One instant only he stood there; the next he darted forward, and fell
with weeping and inarticulate cries into his father's embrace. We paused, and waited
aloof in silence, respecting the supreme joy and emotion of a greeting so
sacred as this. The dogs only, bursting into the cave, leapt and [Page
109] gambolled about, venting
their satisfaction in sonorous barks and turbulent demonstrations of delight.
But for them, as they seemed well to know, this marvellous discovery would
have never been achieved, and the drama which now ended with so great happiness,
might have terminated in a life-long tragedy. Therefore we were
not surprised to see St Aubyn, after the first transport of the meeting,
turn to the dogs, and clasping each huge rough head in turn, kiss it fervently
and with grateful tears. It was their only
guerdon for that day's priceless service: the dumb beasts that love us do
not work for gold ! And now came the
history of the three long months which had elapsed since the occurrence of
the disaster which separated my friend from his little son. Seated on the soft
moss of the cavern floor, St Aubyn in the midst and the boy beside him, we
listened to the sequel of the strange tale recounted the preceding evening
by Theodor and Augustin Raoul. And first we learnt that until the moment
when his father's shout broke upon his ear that day, Charlie St Aubyn had
remained as insensible to sound and as mute of voice as he was when his accident
befell him. Even now that the powers of hearing and of speech were restored,
he articulated uncertainly and with great difficulty, leaving many words
unfinished, and helping out his phrases with gesticulations and signs, his
father suggesting and assisting as the narrative proceeded. Was it the strong
love in St Aubyn's cry that broke through the spell of disease and thrilled
his child's dulled nerves into life ? was it the shock of an emotion coming
unexpected and intense after all those dreary weeks of futile watchfulness
? or was the miracle an effect of the same Divine grace which, by [Page
110] means of a mysterious gift,
had enabled us to track and to find this obscure and unknown spot ? It matters little;
the spirit of man is master of all things, and the miracles of love are myriad-fold.
For, where love abounds and is pure, the spirit of man is as the Spirit of
God. Little
St Aubyn had been saved from death, and sustained during the past three
months by a creature dumb like himself: — a large dog exactly
resembling Fritz and Bruno. This dog, he gave us to understand, came
from over the torrent, indicating with a gesture the Arblen Valley;
and, from the beginning of his troubles, had been to him like a human friend.
The fall from the hill-side had not seriously injured, but only bruised and
temporarily lamed the lad, and after lying for a minute or two a little stunned
and giddy, he rose and with some difficulty made his way across the meadow
slope on which he found himself, expecting to meet his father descending
the path. But he miscalculated its direction, and speedily discovered he
had lost his way. After waiting a long time in great suspense, and seeing
no one but a few goatherds at a distance, whose attention he failed to attract,
the pain of a twisted ankle, increased by continual movement, compelled him
to seek a night's shelter in the cave subsequently visited by his father
at the suggestion of the peasants who assisted in the search. These peasants
were not aware that the cave was but the mouth of a vast and wandering
labyrinth tunnelled, partly by nature and partly by art, through the rocky
heart of the mountain. A little before sunrise, on the morning after his
accident, the boy, examining with minute curiosity the picturesque grotto
in which he had passed the night, discovered in its darkest corner a [Page
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moss-covered stone behind which
had accumulated a great quantity of weeds, ivy, and loose rubbish. Boy-like,
he fell to clearing away these impedimenta and excavating the stone, until,
after some industrious labour thus expended, he dismantled behind and a little
above it a narrow passage, into which he crept, partly to satisfy his love
of exploring, partly in
the hope that it might afford him an egress in the direction of the village.
The aperture thus exposed had not, in fact, escaped the eye of St Aubyn,
when about an hour afterwards the search for the lost boy was renewed.
But one of his guides, after a brief inspection, declared the recess into
which it opened empty, and the party, satisfied with his report, left the
spot, little thinking that all their labour had been lost by a too hasty
examination. For, in fact, this narrow and apparently limited passage
gradually widened in its darkest part, and, as little St Aubyn found, became
by degrees a tolerably roomy corridor, in which he could just manage to
walk upright, and into which light from the outer world penetrated dimly
through artificial fissures hollowed out at intervals in the rocky wall.
Delighted at this discovery, but chilled by the vault-like coldness of
the place, the lad hastened back to fetch the fur mantle he had left in the
cave, threw it over his shoulders, and returned to continue his exploration.
The cavern gallery beguiled him with ever-new wonders at every step. Here
rose a subterranean spring, there a rudely carved gurgoyle grinned from
the granite roof; curious and intricate windings enticed his eager steps,
while all the time the death-like and horrible silence which might have
deterred an ordinary child from further advance, failed of its effect
upon ears unable to distinguish between the living sounds of the outer world
and the stillness of a sepulchre.[Page
112] Thus he groped and wandered,
until he became aware that the gloom of the corridor had gradually deepened,
and that the tiny openings in the rock were now far less frequent than at
the outset. Even to his eyes, by this time accustomed to obscurity, the
darkness grew portentous, and at every step he stumbled against some
unseen projection, or bruised his hands in vain efforts to discover a
returning path. Too late he began to apprehend that he was nearly lost in
the heart of the mountain. Either the windings of the labyrinth were
hopelessly confusing, or some débris, dislodged by the unaccustomed
concussion of footsteps, had fallen from the roof and choked the passage
behind him. The account which the boy gave of his adventure, and of his
vain and long-continued efforts to retrace his way, made the latter
hypothesis appear to us the more acceptable, the noise occasioned by
such a fall having of course passed unheeded by him. In the end,
thoroughly baffled and exhausted, the lad determined to work on through
the Cimmerian darkness in the hope of discovering a second terminus on
the further side of the mountain. This at length he did. A faint star-like
outlet finally presented itself to his delighted eyes; he groped painfully
towards it; gradually it widened and brightened, till at length he emerged
from the subterranean gulf which had so long imprisoned him into the mountain
cave wherein he had ever since remained. How long it had taken him to
accomplish this passage he could not guess, but from the sun's position it
seemed to be about noon when he again beheld day. He sat down,
dazzled and fatigued, on the mossy floor of the grotto, and watched the
mountain torrent eddying and sweeping furiously past in the gorge beneath
his retreat. After [Page
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towards evening faint with hunger and bitterly regretting the affliction
which prevented him from attracting help. Suddenly, to his
great amaze, a huge tawny head appeared above the rocky edge of the plateau,
and in another moment a St Bernard hound clambered up the steep bank and
ran towards the cave. He was dripping wet, and carried, strapped across his
broad back, a double panier, the contents of which proved on inspection
to consist of three flasks of goat's milk, and some half-dozen rye loaves
packed in a tin box. The friendly expression
and intelligent demeanour of his visitor invited little St Aubyn's confidence
and reanimated his sinking heart. Delighted at such evidence of human proximity,
and eager for food, he drank of the goat's milk and ate part of the bread,
afterwards emptying his pockets of the few sous he possessed and enclosing
them with the remaining loaves in the tin case, hoping that the sight of
the coins would inform the dog's owners of the incident. The creature went
as he came, plunging into the deepest and least boisterous part of the torrent,
which he crossed by swimming, regained the opposite shore, and soon disappeared
from view. But next day, at
about the same hour, the dog reappeared alone, again bringing milk and bread,
of which again the lad partook, this time, however, having no sous to deposit
in the basket. And when, as on the previous day, his new friend rose to depart,
Charlie St Aubyn left the cave with him, clambered down the bank with difficulty,
and essayed to cross the torrent ford. But the depth and rapidity of the
current dismayed him, and with sinking heart the child returned to his abode.
Every day the same thing happened, and at length the strange [Page
114] life
became familiar to him, the trees, the birds, and the flowers became his
friends, and the great hound a mysterious protector whom he regarded with
reverent affection and trusted with entire confidence. At night he dreamed
of home, and constantly visited his father in visions, saying always the
same words, "
Father, I am alive and well." "And now", whispered
the child, nestling closer in St Aubyn's embrace, "
the wonderful thing is that today, for the first and only time since I have
been in this cave, my dog has not come to me ! It looks, does it not, as if
in some strange and fairy-like way he really knew what was happening, and
had known it all along from the very beginning! O father ! can he be — do
you think — can he be an Angel in disguise? And, to be sure, I patted
him, and thought he was only a dog !" As the boy, an awed
expression in his lifted blue eyes, gave utterance to this naïve idea,
I glanced at St Aubyn's face, and saw that, though his lips smiled, his eyes
were grave and full of grateful wonder. He turned towards
the peasants grouped around us, and in their own language recited to them
the child's story. They listened intently, from time to time exchanging among
themselves intelligent glances and muttering interjections expressive of
astonishment. When the last word of the tale was spoken, the elder Raoul,
who stood at the entrance of the cave, gazing out over the sunlit valley
of the Arblen, removed his hat with a reverent gesture and crossed himself. "God forgive us
miserable sinners", he said humbly, "and pardon us our
human pride! The Angel of the Lord whom Augustin and I beheld in our
vision, ministering to the lad, is no other than the dog Glück who [Page
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lives at the monastery out yonder
! And while we men are lucid only once a year, he has the seeing gift all
the year round, and the good God showed him the lad in this cave, when we,
forsooth, should have looked for him in vain. I know that every day Glück
is sent from the monastery laden with food and drink to a poor widow living
up yonder over the ravine. She is infirm and bedridden, and her little grand-daughter
takes care of her. Doubtless the poor soul took the sous in the basket to
be the gift of the brothers, and, as her portion is not always the same from
day to day, but depends on what they can spare from the store set apart for
almsgiving, she would not notice the diminished cakes and milk, save perhaps
to grumble a little at the increase of the beggars who trespassed thus on
her pension." There was silence
among us for a moment, then St Aubyn's boy spoke. "Father", he asked,
tremulously, "shall
I not see that good Glück again and tell the monks how he saved me, and
how Fritz and Bruno brought you here ?" " Yes, my child", answered
St Aubyn, rising, and drawing the boy's hand into his own, "we will go and
find Glück, who knows, no doubt, all that has passed today, and is waiting
for us at the monastery." " We must ford the
torrent," said Augustin; " the
bridge was carried off by last year's avalanche, but with six of us and
the dogs it will be easy work." Twilight was falling;
and already the stars of Christmas Eve climbed the frosty heavens and appeared
above the snowy far-off peaks. Filled with gratitude
and wonder at all the strange events of the day we betook ourselves to the
ford, and by the help of ropes and stocks our whole party landed [Page
116] safely on the valley side.
Another half-hour brought us into the warm glow of the monk's refectory fire,
where, while supper was prepared, the worthy brothers listened to a tale
at least as marvellous as any legend in their ecclesiastical repertory. I
fancy they must have felt a pang of regret that holy Mother Church would
find it impossible to bestow upon Glück and his two noble sons the
dignity of canonization. THE strange things
I am going to tell you, dear reader, did not occur, as such things generally
do, to my great-uncle, or to my second cousin, or even to my grandfather,
but to myself. It happened that a few years ago I received an invitation
from an old schoolfellow to spend Christmas week with him in his country
house on the borders of North Wales, and, as I was then a happy bachelor,
and had not seen my friend for a considerable time, I accepted the invitation,
and turned my back upon London on the appointed day with a light heart and
anticipations of the pleasantest description. Leaving my City
haunts by a morning train, I was landed early in the afternoon at the nearest
station to my friend's house, although in this case
nearest was indeed, as it proved, by no means near. When I reached
the inn where I had fondly expected to find " flys, omnibuses, and
other vehicles obtainable on the shortest notice," I was met by the
landlady of the establishment, [Page
117] who, with an apologetic
curtsey and a deprecating smile, informed me that she was extremely
sorry to say her last conveyance had just started with a party, and
would not return until late at night. I looked at my watch; it was
nearing four. Seven miles, and I had a large travelling-bag to carry. "Is it a good road
from here to -----?" I
asked the landlady. "Oh
yes, sir; very fair." "Well", I said, "I
think I'll walk it. The railway journey has rather numbed my feet, and
a sharp walk will certainly improve their temperature." So I courageously
lifted my bag and set out on the journey to my friend's house. Ah, how little
I guessed what was destined to befall me before I reached that desired haven!
I had gone, I suppose, about two miles when I descried behind me a vast mass
of dark, surging cloud driving up rapidly with the wind. I was in open country,
and there was evidently going to be a very heavy snowstorm. Presently it
began. At first I made up my mind not to heed it; but in about twenty minutes
after the commencement of the fall the snow became so thick and so blinding,
that it was absolutely impossible for me to find my way along a road which
was utterly new to me. Moreover, with the cloud came the twilight, and a
most disagreeably keen wind. The travelling-bag became unbearably heavy.
I shifted it from one hand to the other; I hung it over my shoulder; I put
it under my arm; I carried it in all sorts of ways, but none afforded me
any permanent relief. To add to my misfortune, I strongly suspected that
I had mistaken my way, for by this time the snow was so deep that the footpath
was altogether obliterated. In this predicament I [Page
118] looked out wistfully across
the whitened landscape for signs of an inn or habitation of some description
where I might put up for the night, and by good fortune (or was it
bad ?) I at last espied through the gathering gloom a solitary and not very
distant light twinkling from a lodge at the entrance of a private road. I
fought my way through the snow as quickly as possible, and, presenting myself
at the gate of the little cottage, rang the bell complacently, and flattered
myself that I had at length discovered a resting-place. An old man with grey
hair answered my summons. Him I acquainted with my misfortune, and to him
I preferred my request that I might be allowed a night's shelter in the lodge,
or at least the temporary privilege of drying myself and mes habillements at
his fireside. The old fellow admitted me cheerfully enough; but he seemed
more than doubtful as to the possibility of my passing the night beneath
his roof. "Ye see, sir", he said, "we've only one small room — me and
the missis; and I don't well see how we're to manage about you. All the same,
sir, I wouldn't advise ye to go on tonight, for if ye're bound for Mr ------'s,
ye've come a deal out of your
way, and the storm's getting worse and worse every minute. We shall have a
nasty night of it, sir, and it'll be a deal too stiff for travelling on foot." Here the wife, a
hospitable-looking old woman, interposed. "Willum, don't ye
think as the gentleman might be put to sleep in the room up at the House,
where George slept last time he was here to see us ? His bed's there still,
ye know. It's a very good room, sir," she argued,
addressing me; " and I can give ye a pair of blankets in no time."[Page
119] "Lor! bless ye,
sir !" answered my host, " there
ain't nobody in the place. The house has been to let these ten years
at least to my knowledge; for I've been here eight, and the house and the
lodge had both been empty no one knows how long when I come, I rents
this cottage of Mr Houghton, out yonder." "Oh well", I rejoined, "if
that is the case, and there is nobody's leave save yours to ask, I'm
willing enough to sleep at the house, and thank you too for your kindness." So it was arranged
that I should pass the coming night within the walls of the empty mansion;
and, until it was time to retire thither, I amused and edified myself by
a friendly chat with the old man and his spouse, both of whom were vastly
communicative. At ten o'clock I and my host adjourned to the house, which
stood at a very short distance from the lodge. I carried my bag, and my companion
bore the blankets already referred to, a candle, and some firewood and matches.
The chamber to which he conducted me was comfortable enough, but by no means
profusely furnished. It contained a small truckle bedstead, two chairs, and
a washstand, but no attempt at pictures or ornaments of any description.
Evidently it was an impromptu bedroom. My entertainer in
a few minutes kindled a cheerful fire upon the old-fashioned stone hearth.
Then, after arranging my bed and placing my candle on the mantelpiece, he
wished me a respectful good-night and withdrew. When he was gone I dragged
one of the chairs towards the fireplace, and sat down to enjoy the pleasant
flicker of the blaze. I ruminated upon the occurrences of the [Page
120] day, and the possible
history of the old house, whose sole occupant I had thus strangely become.
Now, I am of an inquisitive turn of mind, and perhaps less apt than most
men to be troubled with that uncomfortable sensation which those people
who are its victims describe as nervousness, and those who are not,
as cowardice. Another in my place might have shrunk from doing what I
presently resolved to do, and that was to explore, before going to rest,
at least some part of this empty old house. Accordingly, I took up my candle
and walked out into the passage, leaving the door of my room widely open,
so that the fire-light streamed full into the entrance of the dark gallery,
and served to guide me on my way along it. When I had thus progressed for
some twenty yards, I was brought to a standstill by encountering a large
red baize door, which evidently shut off the wing in which my room was
situated from the rest of the mansion, and completely closed all egress
from the corridor where I then stood. I paused a moment or two in
uncertainty, for the door was locked; but presently my glance fell on an
old rusty key hanging from a nail, likewise rusty, in a niche of the wall.
I abstracted this key from its resting-place, destroying as I did so the
residences of a dozen spiders, which, to judge from appearances, seemed
to have thrived excellently in the atmosphere of desolation which
surrounded them. It was some time before I could get the clumsy old lock
to act properly, or summon sufficient strength to turn the key; but at length
perseverance met with its proverbial reward, and the door moved slowly
and noisily on its hinges. Still bearing my candle, I went on my way into
a second corridor, which was literally carpeted with dust, the accumulation
probably of the ten years to which my host had referred.[Page
121] "Halloa, sir, you're
up betimes!" he exclaimed. "Will ye just step in now
and take somethin' ? My ole woman's agoin' to get out the breakfast. Slept
well last night, sir ? " he continued, as I entered the little parlour; "the
bed is rayther hard, I know; but, ye see, it does well enow for my son George
when he's up here, which isna often. Ye look tired like, this morning; didna
get much rest p'raps ? Ah ! now then, Bess, gi' us another plate here, ole
gal." I ate my breakfast
in comparative silence, wondering to myself whether it would be well to say
anything to my host of my recent experiences, since he had clearly [Page
128] no suspicions on the subject;
and, anon, wishing I had comported myself in that terrible house with as
little curiosity as the
son George, who no doubt was content to stay where he was put at night,
and was not given to nocturnal excursions in empty mansions. "Have you any idea", said
I, at last, "whether there's any story connected
with that place where I slept last night ? I only ask", added I, with a
feeble grin, like the ghost of a smile that had been able-bodied once, "because
I'm fond of hearing stories, and because, as you know, there generally is
a legend, or something of that sort, related about old family mansions". "Well, sir", answered
the old man slowly, " I
never heard nothin' but then, you see, I never asked no questions. We
came here eight years agone, and then no one round remembered a tenant
at the big house. It's been empty somewhere nigh twenty years, I should
say, — to my own knowledge
more than ten, — and what's more, nobody knows exactly who it belongs
to: and there's been lawsuits about it and all manner o' things, but nothin'
ever came of them." "Did no one ever
tell you anything about its history", I asked, "or
were you never asked any questions about it until now ? " "Not particularly
as I remember", replied
he musingly. Then,
after a moment's pause,
he added more briskly, " Ay,
ay, though, now I come
to think of it, there was a man up here more'n five months
back, a Frenchman, who
came on purpose to see it and ask me one or two questions,
but I on'y jest told
him nothin' as I've told you. He was a popish priest, and
seemed to take a sight of interest in the place
somehow. I think if you
want to know about it, sir, you'd better go and see him; he's [Page
129]
staying
down here in the village,
about a mile and a half
off, at the Crown Inn." "And a queer old
fellow he is", broke in my host's wife, who was clearing
away the breakfast; "no one knows where he comes from, 'cept as he's a
Frenchman. I see him about often, prowlin' along with his stick and his
snuff-box, always alone, and sometimes he nods at me and says 'good-morning'
as I go by." In consequence of
this information I resolved to make my way immediately to the old priest's
dwelling, and having acquainted myself with the direction in which the house
lay, I took leave of my host, shouldered my bag once more, and set out en
route. The air was clear and sharp, and the crisp
snow crackled pleasantly under my Hessian boots as I strode along the
country lanes. All traces of cloud had totally disappeared from the sky,
the sun looked cheerfully down on me, and my morning's walk thoroughly
refreshed and invigorated me. In due time I arrived at the inn which had
been named to me as the abode of the Rev. M. Pierre, — a pretty homely
little nest, with an antique gable and portico. Addressing myself to the
elderly woman who answered my summons at the house-door, I inquired if
I could see M. Pierre, and, in reply, received a civil invitation to "step
inside and wait". My suspense did not last long, for M. Pierre made his
appearance very promptly. He was a tall, thin individual with a fried-looking
complexion, keen sunken eyes, and sparse hair streaked with grey. He
entered the room with a courteous bow and inquiring look. Rising from the
chair in which I had rested myself by the fire, I advanced towards him and
addressed him by name in my suavest tones. He inclined his head and
looked at me more inquiringly than before. " I [Page
130] have
taken the liberty to request an interview with you this morning", continued
I, " because
I have been told that you may probably be able to give me some information
of which I am in search, with regard to an old mansion in this part of the
county, called Steepside, and in which I spent last night." Scarcely had I uttered
these last words when the expression of the old priest's face changed from
one of courteous indifference to earnest interest. "Do I understand
you rightly, monsieur ?" he said. " You
say you slept last night in Steepside mansion ? " "I
did not say I slept there," I rejoined, with an emphasis; "I
said I passed the night there." "Bien", said
he dryly, "I comprehend. And you were not pleased with
your night's lodging. That is so, is it not, monsieur, — is it not
? " he
repeated, eying my face curiously, as though he were seeking to read the
expression of my thoughts there. "You may be sure", said
I, "that
if something very peculiar had not occurred to me in that house, I should
not thus have troubled a gentleman to whom I am, unhappily, a stranger." He bowed slightly
and then stood silent, contemplating me, and, as I think, considering whether
or not he should afford me the information I desired. Presently, his scrutiny
having apparently proved satisfactory, he withdrew his eyes from my face,
and seated himself beside me. " Monsieur", said
he, "before
I begin to answer your inquiry, I will ask you to tell me what you saw
last night at Steepside." He drew from his
pocket a small, old-fashioned snuffbox and refreshed his little yellow nose
with a pinch of [Page
131] rappee, after which ceremonial
he leaned back at his ease, resting his chin in his hand and regarding me
fixedly during the whole of my strange recital. When I had finished
speaking he sat silent a few minutes, and then resumed, in his queer
broken manner: "What
I am going to tell you
I would not tell to any man who had not done what you have done, and seen
what you saw last night. Mon Dieu! it is strange you should have been at that
house last night of all nights in the year, the 22nd of December!” He seemed to make
this reflection rather to himself than to me, and presently continued, taking
a small key from a pocket in his vest as he spoke: "Excellently well", returned
I with alacrity; "a
great part of my business correspondence is conducted in French, and
I speak and hear it every day of my life." He smiled pleasantly
in reply, rose from his seat, and, unlocking with the key he held a small
drawer in a chest that stood beside the chimney-piece, took out of it a roll
of manuscript and a cigar. "Monsieur" ,
said he, offering me the latter, "let me recommend this, if you
care to smoke so early in the day. I always prefer rappee, but you,
doubtless, have younger tastes." Having
thus provided for my
comfort, the old priest reseated himself, unfolded the manuscript, and, without
further apology, read the following story in the French language: — Towards the latter
part of the last century Steepside became the property of a certain Sir Julian
Lorrington. His family consisted only of his wife, Lady Sarah, and [Page
132] their daughter Julia,
a girl remarkable alike for her beauty and her expectations. For
a long time Sir Julian
had retained in his establishment an old French maitre d'hôtel and
his wife, who both died in the baronet's service, leaving one child, Virginie,
whom Lady Sarah, out of regard for the fidelity of her parents,
engaged to educate and protect. In due time this
orphan, brought up in the household of Sir Julian, became the chosen companion
of his heiress; and when the family took up their residence at Steepside,
Virginie Giraud, who had been associated in Julia's studies and recreations
from early childhood, was installed there as maid and confidant to the hope
of the house. Not long after the
settlement at Steepside, Sir Julian, in the summary fashion of those days
with regard to matrimonial affairs, announced his intention of bestowing
his daughter upon a certain Welsh squire of old ancestry and broad acres.
Sir Julian was a practical man, thoroughly incapable of regarding wedlock
in any other light than as a mere union of wealth and property, the owners
of which joined hands and lived together. This was the way in which he had
married, and it was the way in which he intended his daughter to marry; love
and passion were meaningless, if not vulgar words in his ears, and he conceived
it impossible they should be otherwise to his only child. As for Lady Sarah,
she was an unsympathetic creature, whose thoughts ran only on the ambition
of seeing Julia married to some gentleman of high position, and heading a
fine establishment with social success and distinction. So it was not until
all things relative to the contract had been duly arranged between these
amiable parents [Page
133] and their intended son-in-law,
that the bride elect was informed of the fortune in store for her. But all the time
that the lawyers had been preparing the marriage settlements, a young penniless
gentleman named Philip Brian had been finding out for himself the way to
Julia's heart, and these two had pledged their faith to each other only a
few days before Sir Julian and Lady Lorrington formally announced their plans
to their daughter. In consequence of her engagement with Philip, Julia received
their intelligence with indignation, and protested that no power on earth
should force her to act falsely to the young man whose promised wife she
had become. The expression of this determination was received by both
parents with high displeasure. Sir Julian indulged in a few angry oaths,
and Lady Sarah in a little select satire; Philip Brian was, of course, forbidden
the house, all letters and messages between the lovers were interdicted,
and Julia was commanded to comport herself like a dutiful and obedient
heiress. Now Virginie Giraud
was the friend as well as the attendant of Sir Julian's daughter, and it
was Virginie therefore who, after the occurrence of this outbreak, was despatched
to Philip with a note of warning from his mistress. Naturally the lover returned
an answer by the same means, and from that hour Virginie continued to act
as agent between the two, carrying letters to and fro, giving counsel and
arranging meetings. Meanwhile the bridal day was fixed by the parent Lorringtons,
and elaborate preparations were made for a wedding festival which should
be the wonderment and admiration of the county. The breakfast room was decorated
with lavish splendour, the richest apparel bespoken for the bride, and all
the wealthy and titled relatives of both contracting [Page
134] families
were invited to the pageant. Nor were Philip and Julia idle. It was arranged
between them that, at eleven o'clock on the night of the day preceding the
intended wedding, the young man should present himself beneath Julia's window,
Virginie being on the watch and in readiness to accompany the flight of the
lovers. All three, under cover of the darkness, should then steal down the
avenue of the coach-drive and make their exit by the shrubbery gate, the
key of which Virginie already had in keeping. The appointed evening came, — the
22nd of December. Snow lay deep upon the ground, and more threatened
to fall before dawn, but Philip had engaged to provide horses equal to any
emergency of weather, and the darkness of the night lent favour to the
enterprise. Virginie's behaviour all that day had somehow seemed
unaccountable to her mistress. The maid's face was pallid and wore a
strange expression of anxiety and apprehension. She winced and trembled
when Julia's glance rested upon her, and her hands quivered violently
while she helped the latter to adjust her hood and mantle as the hour of
assignation approached. Endeavouring, however, to persuade herself that
this strange conduct arose from a feeling of excitement or nervousness
natural under the circumstances, Julia used a hundred kind words and
tender gestures to reassure and support her companion. But the more she
consoled or admonished, the more agitated Virginie became, and matters
stood in this condition when eleven o'clock arrived. Julia waited at
her chamber window, which was not above three feet from the ground without,
her hood and mantle donned, listening eagerly for the sound of her lover's
voice; and the French girl leant behind her [Page
135]
against the closed door, nervously
tearing to fragments a piece of paper she had taken from her pocket a minute
ago. These torn atoms she flung upon the hearth, where a bright fire was
blazing, not observing that, meanwhile, Julia had opened the window-casement.
A gust of wind darting into the room from outside caught up a fragment of
the yet unconsumed paper and whirled it back from the flames to Julia's feet.
She glanced at it indifferently, but the sight of some characters on it suddenly
attracting her, she stooped and picked it up. It bore her name
written over and over several times, first in rather laboured imitation of
her own handwriting, then more successfully, and, lastly, in so perfect a
manner that even Julia herself was almost deceived into believing it her
genuine signature. Then followed several L's and J's, as though the copyist
had not considered those initials satisfactory counterparts of the original. Julia wondered,
but did not doubt; and as she tossed the fragment from her hand, Virginie
turned and perceived the action. Instantly a deep flush of crimson overspread
the maid's face; she darted suddenly forward, and uttered an exclamation
of alarm. Her cry was immediately succeeded by the sharp noise of a pistol
report beneath the window, and a heavy, muffled sound, as of the fall of
a body upon the snow-covered earth. Julia looked out in fear and surprise.
The leaping firelight from within the room streamed through the window, and,
in the heart of its vivid brightness, revealed the figure of a man lying
motionless upon the whitened ground, his face buried in the scattered snow,
and his outstretched hand grasping a pistol. Julia leaped through
the open casement with a wild shriek, and flung herself on her knees beside
him.[Page
136] But the only response
was a faint, low moan. Philip Brian had
shot himself! In an agony of grief
and horror Julia lifted his head upon her arm, and pressed her hand to his
heart. The movement recalled him to life for a few moments; he opened his
eyes, looked at her, and uttered a few broken words. She stooped and listened
eagerly. The letter !
he gasped; " the letter you sent me ! O Julia, you have broken
my heart! How could you be false to me, and I loving you — trusting
you — so
wholly ! But at least I shall not live to see you wed the man you have
chosen; I came here tonight to die, since without you life would be
intolerable. See what you have done!" Desperate and silent,
she wound her arms around him, and pressed her lips to his. A convulsive
shudder seized him; his eyes rolled back, and with a sigh he resigned himself
to the death he had courted so madly. Death in the passion of a last kiss
! Julia
sat still, the corpse
of her lover supported on her arm, and her hand clasped in his, tearless and
frigid as though she had been turned into stone by some fearful spell. Half
hidden in the bosom of his vest was a letter, the broken seal of which
bore her own monogram. She plucked it out of its resting-place, and read it
hastily by the flicker of the firelight. It was in Lady Sarah's handwriting,
and ran thus: — "MY DEAR MR BRIAN, — Although,
when last we parted, it was with the usual understanding that tonight
we should meet again; yet subsequent reflection, and [Page
137] the positive injunctions
of my parents, have obliged me to decide otherwise. You are to know,
therefore, that, in obedience to the wishes of my father and mother,
I have promised to become the wife of the gentleman they have chosen
for me. All correspondence between us must therefore wholly cease, nor
must you longer suffer yourself to entertain a thought of me. It is hardly
necessary to add that I shall not expect to see you this evening; your
own sense of honour will, I am persuaded, be sufficient to restrain you
from keeping an appointment against my wishes. In concluding, I beg you
will not attempt to obtain any further explanation of my conduct; but
rest assured that it is the unalterable resolve of cool and earnest deliberation. " For
the last time I subscribe myself”. " Postscript. — In
order to save you any doubt of my entire concurrence in my mother's wishes,
I sign and address this with my own hand, and Virginie, who undertakes
to deliver it, will add her personal testimony to the truth of these
statements, since she has witnessed the writing of the letter, and knows
how fully my consent has been given to all its expressions." " With my own hand
! " Yes,
surely; both signature and address were perfect facsimiles of Julia's
writing ! What wonder that Philip had been deceived into believing her false
? Twice she read the letter from beginning to end; then she laid her lover's
corpse gently down on the snow, and stood up erect and silent, her face
more ghastly and death-like than the face of the dead beside her. In a moment the
whole shameful scheme had flashed [Page
138] upon
her mind; — Virginie's treachery and clever fraud; its connection
with the torn fragment of paper which Julia had seen only a few minutes
before; the deliberate falsehood of which Lady Sarah had been guilty;
the bribery, by means of which she had probably corrupted Virginie's
fidelity; the cruel disappointment and suffering of her lover; all these
things pressed themselves upon her reeling brain, and gave birth to the
suggestions of madness. Stooping
down, she put her lithe
hand upon the belt of the dead man. There was, as she expected, a second
pistol in it, the fellow of that with which he had shot himself. It was loaded.
Julia drew it out, wrapped her mantle round it, and climbed noiselessly
into her chamber through the still open window. Crossing the room, she passed
out into the corridor beyond, and went like a shadow, swift and silent
of foot, to the door of her father's study, — an apartment communicating,
by means of an oaken door, with the panelled chamber. Virginie, from a
dark recess in the wall of the house, had heard and noted all that passed
in the garden. She saw Julia open and read the letter; she caught the expression
of her face as she stooped for the pistol, and apprehending something of
what might follow, she crept through the window after her mistress and pursued
her up the dark passages. Here, crouching again into a recess in the gallery
outside the panelled room, she waited in terror for the next scene of the
tragedy. Julia flung open
the door of the study where her father sat writing at his table, and, standing
on the threshold in the full glare of the lamplight which illumined the apartment,
raised the pistol, cocked and aimed it. Sir Julian had barely time to leap
from his [Page
139] chair with a cry when she
fired, and the next instant he fell, struck by the bullet on the left temple,
and expired at his daughter's feet. At the report of the pistol and the sound
of his fall, Lady Sarah quitted her dressing-room and ran in disordered attire
into the study, where she beheld her husband lying dead and bloody upon
the floor, and Julia standing at the entrance of the panelled chamber, with
the light of madness and murder in her eyes. Not long she stood there,
however, for, seeing Lady Sarah enter, the distracted girl threw down the
empty weapon, and flinging herself upon her mother, grasped her throat
with all the might of her frenzied being. Up and down the room they
wrestled together, two desperate women, one bent upon murder, the other
battling for her life, and neither uttered cry or groan, so terribly earnest
was the struggle. At length Lady Sarah's strength gave way; she fell under
her assailant's weight, her face black with suffocation, and her eyes protruding
from their swelling sockets. Julia redoubled her grip. She knelt upon Lady
Sarah's breast, and held her down with the force and resolution of a fiend,
though the blood burst from the ears
of her victim and filmed her staring eyes; nor did the pitiless fingers
relax until the murderess knew her vengeance was complete. Then she leapt
to her feet, seized Philip's pistol from the floor, and, with a wild, pealing
shriek, fled forth along the gallery, down the staircase, and out into the
park, — out
into the wind, and the driving snow, and the cold, her uncoiled hair streaming
in dishevelled masses down her shoulders, and her dress of trailing satin
daubed with stains of blood. Behind her ran Virginie, well-nigh maddened
herself with horror, vainly endeavouring to catch or to stop the unhappy
fugitive. But just as the [Page
140] latter reached the brink
of a high precipice at the boundary of the terraced lawn, from which the
mansion took its name of
Steepside she turned to look at her pursuer, missed her footing, and
fell headlong over the low stone coping that bordered the slope into the
snow-drift at the bottom of the chasm. Virginie ran to
the spot and looked over. The steep was exceedingly high
and sudden; not a trace of Julia could be seen in the darkness below.
Doubtless the miserable heiress of the Lorringtons had found a grave in the
bed of soft, deep snow which surrounded its base. Then,
stricken through heart and brain with the curse of madness which had
already sent her mistress red-handed to death, Virginie Giraud fled across
the lawn — through the park-gates — out upon the bleak common
beyond, and was gone. The old priest laid
aside the manuscript and took a fresh pinch of rappee from the silver snuff-box. "Monsieur", said
he, with a polite inclination of his grey head, "I
have had the honour to read you the history you wished to hear". "And I thank you
most heartily for your kindness", returned I. "But
may I, without danger of seeming too inquisitive, ask you one question
more?" Seeing
assent in his face, and a smile that anticipated my inquiry wrinkling
the corners of his mouth, I continued boldly, " Will you tell me, then, M.
Pierre, by what means you became possessed of this manuscript, and
who wrote it ? " "It is a natural
question, monsieur", he answered after a short pause, "and
I have no good reason for withholding [Page
141] the reply, since every one
who was personally concerned in the tragedy has long been dead. You
must know, then, that in my younger days I was curé to a little
parish of about two hundred souls in the province of Berry. Many years ago
there came to this village a strange old woman of whom nobody in the place
had the least knowledge. She took and rented a small hovel on the borders
of a wood about two miles from our church, and, except on market days, when
she came to the village for her weekly provisions, none of my parishioners
ever held any intercourse with her. She was evidently insane, and although
she did harm to nobody, yet she often caused considerable alarm and
wonderment by her eccentric behaviour. It is, as you must know, often the
case in intermittent mania that its victims are insane upon some particular
subject, some point upon which their frenzy always betrays itself, — even
when, with regard to other matters, they conduct themselves like ordinary
people. Now this old woman's weakness manifested itself in a wild and
continual desire to copy every written document she saw. If, on her market-day
visits to the village, any written notice upon the church-doors chanced to
catch her eye as she passed, she would immediately pause, draw out pencil
and paper from her pocket, and stand muttering to herself until she had closely
transcribed the whole of the placard, when she would quietly return the copy
to her pocket and go on her way. "In
this fashion she chattered and muttered feverishly for some minutes,
till I grew alarmed, and taking her by the shoulders, tried to shake back
the senses into her distracted brain. ' What ails you, foolish old woman
?' cried I ' I am not miladi; I am your parish pastor. Say your Pater
Noster, or your Ave, and drive Satan away.' "I
am not sure whether my words or the removal of [Page
143] the unlucky
manuscript recalled her wandering wits. At any rate, she speedily
recovered, and, after doing my best to soothe and calm her by leading her
to speak on other topics, I quitted the cottage reassured. "Not
long after this episode
a neighbour called at my house one morning, and told me that, having missed
the old woman from the weekly market, and knowing how regular she had always
been in her attendance, he had gone to her dwelling and found her lying
sick and desiring to see me. Of course I immediately prepared to comply with
her request, providing myself in case I should find her anxious for absolution
and the viaticum. Directly I entered her hut, she beckoned me to the
bedside, and said in a low, hurried voice: — " 'Father, I wish to confess to you at once, for I know I am
going to die.' "Perceiving
that, for the present
at least, she was perfectly sane, I willingly complied with her request, and
heard her slowly and painfully unburden her miserable soul. "Monsieur,
if the story with which
Virginie Giraud intrusted me had been told only in her sacramental confession,
I should not have been able to repeat it to you. But, when the final
words of peace had been spoken, she took a packet of papers from beneath her
pillow and placed it in my hands. ' Here, father,' she said, ' is the substance
of my history. When I am dead, you are free to make what use of it you
please. It may warn some, perhaps, from yielding to the great temptation
which overcame me.' " ' The temptation
of a bribe ? " said
I, inquiringly. She turned her failing sight towards my face and shook
her head feebly. [Page
144] "I
gave no reply, for her
words were enigmatical to me, and I was loath to harass with my curiosity
a soul so near its departure as hers. So I leaned back in my chair and sat
silent, in the hope that, being wearied with her religious exercises, she might
be able to sleep a little. But, no doubt, my last question, working in
her disordered mind, awoke again the madness that had only slumbered for a
time. Suddenly she raised herself on her pillow, pressed her withered hands
to her head, and cried out wildly: — " ' Money ! — money
to me, who would have sold my own soul for one day
of his love! Ah! I could have flung it back in their faces! — fools
that they were to believe I cared for gold ! Philip ! Philip ! you were mad
to think of the heiress as a wife; it had been better for you had you cared
to look on me — on me who loved you so ! Then I should never have
ruined you — never betrayed you to Lady Sarah! But I could not forgive
the hard words you gave me; I could not forgive your love, for Julia ! Shall
I ever go to paradise — to paradise where the saints are ? Will they
let me in there ? — will they suffer my soul among them ? Or shall
I never leave purgatory, but burn, and burn, and burn there always uncleansed
? For, oh ! if all the past should come back to me a thousand years hence,
I should do the same thing again, Phil Brian, for love of you !' "She started from
the bed in her delirium; there came a rattling sound in her throat — a
sudden choking cry — and in a moment her breast and
pillow and quilt were deluged with a crimson stream ! In her paroxysm she
had burst a blood-vessel. I sprang forward to catch [Page
145] her as she fell
prone upon the brick floor; raised her in my arms, and gazed at her
distorted features. There was no breath from the reddened lips.
Virginie Giraud was a corpse. " Thus
in her madness was told
the secret of her life and her crime; a secret she would not confess even
to me in her sane moments. It was no greed of gold, but despised and vindictive
love that lay behind all the horrors she had related. From my soul I
pitied the poor dead wretch, for I dimly comprehended what a hell her existence
on earth had been. "The
written account of the
Steepside tragedy with which she had intrusted me furnished, in somewhat
briefer language, the story I have just read to you, and many of its more important
details have subsequently been verified by me on application to other
sources, so that in that paper you have the testimony of an eyewitness to
the facts, as well as the support of legal evidence. "Some
forty years after Virginie's
death, monsieur, family reasons obliged me to seek temporary release
from duty and come to England; and, finding that circumstances would keep
me in the country for some time, I came here and went to see that house.
But the tenant at the lodge could only tell me that Steepside was empty then,
and had been empty for years past; and I have discovered that, since that horrible
22nd of December, it never had an occupant. Sir Julian, to
whom it belonged by purchase, left no immediate heirs, and his relatives squabbled
between themselves over the property, till one by one the disputing
parties died off, and now there is no one enterprising enough to resuscitate
the lawsuit." Rising to take my
leave of the genial old man, it [Page
146] occurred to me as
extremely probable that he might have been led to form some opinion
worth hearing with regard to the nature of the strange appearances at
Steepside, and I ventured accordingly to make the inquiry. "If my views on
the subject have any value or interest for you", said he, "you are very welcome
to know them. As a priest of the Catholic Church, I cannot accept the popular
notions about ghostly visitations. Such experiences as yours in that ill-fated
mansion are explicable to me only on the following hypothesis. There is a
Power greater than the powers of evil; a Will to which even demons must submit.
It is not inconsistent with Christian doctrine to suppose that, in cases
of such terrible crimes as that we have been discussing, the evil spirits
who prompted these crimes may, for a period more or less lengthy, be forced
to haunt the scene of their machinations, and re-enact there, in phantom
show, the horrors they once caused in reality. Naturally — or
perhaps", said he, breaking off
with a little smile, " I ought rather to say super-naturally — these
demons, in order to manifest themselves, would be forced to resume some shape
that would identify them with the crime they had suggested; and, in such a
case,
what more likely than that they should adopt the spectral forms of their
human victims — murdered and murderer, or otherwise — according
to the nature of the wickedness perpetrated ? This is but an amateur opinion,
monsieur; I offer it as an individual, not as a priest speaking on the part
of the Church. But it may serve to account for a real difficulty, and may
be held without impiety. Of one thing at least we may rest assured as Christian
men; that the souls of the dead, whether of saints or sinners, are in God's
safe keeping, and walk the earth no more." [Page
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I
was walking alone on the sea-shore. The day was singularly clear and
sunny. Inland lay the most beautiful landscape ever seen; and far off were
ranges of tall hills, the highest peaks of which were white with glittering
snows. Along the sands by the sea came towards me a man accoutred as a
postman. He gave me a letter. It was from you. It ran thus: —
"I
have got hold of the earliest and most precious book extant. It was written
before the world began. The text is easy enough to read; but the notes,
which are very copious and numerous, are in such minute and obscure characters
that I cannot make them out. I want you to get for me the spectacles
which Swedenborg used to wear; not the smaller pair — those he
gave to Hans Christian Andersen — but
the large pair, and these seem to have got mislaid. I think they are Spinoza's
make. You know he was an optical-glass maker by profession, and the best
we have ever had. See if you can get them for me."
When
I looked up after reading this letter, I saw the postman hastening away
across the sands, and I cried out to him, " Stop ! how am I to send
the answer ? Will you not wait for it ?"
He looked round,
stopped, and came back to me.
"How can you have the
answer before I have written it?" I asked. "You
are making a mistake".
"No", he said. "In
the city from which I come, the replies are all written at the office,
and sent out with the letters themselves. Your reply is in my bag".
"Let me see
it", I
said. He took another letter from his wallet and gave it to me. I opened
it, and read, in my own handwriting, this answer, addressed to you:—
"The
spectacles you want can be bought in London. But you will not be able
to use them at once, for they have not been worn for many years, and they
sadly want cleaning. This you will not be able to do yourself in London,
because it is too dark there to see well, and because your fingers are
not small enough to clean them properly. Bring them here to me, and I will
do it for you."
I
gave this letter back to the postman. He smiled and nodded at me; and
I then perceived to my astonishment that he wore a camels-hair tunic round
his waist. I had been on the point of addressing him — I know not why — as Hermes.
But I now saw that he must be John the Baptist; and in my fright at having
spoken with so great a saint, I awoke.[The dreamer knew
nothing of Spinoza at this time, and was quite unaware that he was an optician.
Subsequent experience made it clear that the spectacles in question were
intended to represent her own remarkable faculty of intuitional and interpretive
perception (Ed)]
LONDON, Jan. 31, 1877. [Page
21]
"This
spirit, who is of our order, writes in this book, — Be ye perfect,
therefore, as your Father in heaven is perfect. How shall we
understand this word perfection ?" And another of the old men,
looking up, answered,
" It must mean wisdom, for wisdom is the sum of perfection." And another
old man said, "That cannot be; for no creature can be wise as God is wise.
Where is he among us who could attain to such a state ? That which is part
only, cannot comprehend the whole. To bid a creature to be wise as God is
wise would be mockery."
Then
a fourth old man said: — " It must be Truth that is intended. For
truth only is perfection. "But he who sat next the last speaker answered, "Truth
also is partial; for where is he among us who shall be able to see as God
sees?"
And
the sixth said, " It must surely be Justice; for this is the whole of
righteousness." And the old man who had spoken first, answered him: — "Not
so; for justice comprehends vengeance, and it is written that vengeance is
the Lord's alone." [Page
22]
Then
the young man stood up with an open book in his hand and said: —" I
have here another record of one who likewise heard these words. Let us
see whether his rendering of them can help us to the knowledge we seek." And
he found a place in the book and read aloud: —
"Be
ye merciful, even as your Father is merciful."
And all of them
closed their books and fixed their eyes upon me.
LONDON, April 9,
1877
"Some
one has been murdered in this place !" I
cried, and flew towards the door. Then, for the first time, I perceived
that the door had neither lock nor handle on the outside, but could be
opened only from within. It had, indeed, the form and appearance of a
door, but in every other respect it was solid and impassable as the walls
themselves. In vain I searched for bell or knocker, or for some means of
making entry into the house. I found only a scroll fastened with nails upon
a crossbeam over the door, and upon it I read the words: — This
is the Laboratory of a Vivisector.
As I read, the wailing sound redoubled in intensity, and a noise as of
struggling made itself audible within, as though some new victim had
been added to the first. I beat madly against the door with my hands and
shrieked for help; but in vain. My dress was reddened with the blood upon
the door step. In horror I looked down upon it, then turned and fled. As
I passed along the street, the sounds around me grew and gathered volume,
formulating themselves into distinct cries and bursts of frenzied sobbing.
Upon the door of every house some scroll was attached, similar to that I
had already seen. Upon one was inscribed: — "Here is a husband murdering
his wife:" upon
another: — "Here is a mother beating her child to death:" upon a
third: "This
is a slaughter-house." [Page
24]
Every
door was impassable; every window was barred. The idea of interference
from without was futile. Vainly I lifted my voice and cried for aid.
The street was desolate as a graveyard; the only thing that moved about me
was the stealthy blood that came creeping out from beneath the doors
of these awful dwellings. Wild with horror I fled along the street, seeking
some outlet, the cries and moans pursuing me as I ran. At length the
street abruptly ended in a high dead wall, the top of which was not discernible;
it seemed, indeed, to be limitless in height. Upon this wall was written
in great black letters —There is no way out.
Overwhelmed
with despair and anguish, I fell upon the stones of the street, repeating
aloud — There is no way out.
HlNTON. Jan 1877
PARIS, August
3, 1877.
In
these forests and thickets were numerous shrines of gods such as the Hindus
worship. Every now and then we came upon them in open spaces. They were uncouth
and rudely painted; but they all were profusely adorned with gems, chiefly
turquoises, and they all had many arms and hands, in which they held lotus
flowers, sprays of palms, and coloured berries.
PARIS, July 1877
HINTON, February
1877.
HINTON, Sept. 1877.
PARIS, Nov. 3, 1877
[The prognostic
was fully justified by the event. (Ed)]
Paris,
Nov 15, 1877
Paris Jan 1878
Paris, October 28, 1879
Paris, February 2, 1880
LONDON, April 30,
1882
At
this he laughed, and seemed all at once quite a youth. “Clubs are
strong cards, after all,” he said. “Don’t despise the black
suits. I have known some of the best games ever played won by players holding
more clubs than you have.”
“How
can that be? I asked.
ATCHAM, Nov. 5,
1885.
' What dost thou claim to be, Gautama
?' "
Buddha
answered them, ' I claim to be nothing.'
ROME, April
12, 1887.
PARIS, May 1880. [Page
80]
[These are not properly
dream-verses, having been suddenly presented to the waking vision one day in
Paris while gazing at the bright sky. (Ed)]
April 19, 1886.
August 31, 1887 [Pages
83 - 85]
DREAM-STORIES
A
CHRISTMAS STORY
There I hesitated
and paused. How could I tell him that he interested me so much as to make
me long to know the romance which, I felt convinced, attached to his expedition
?
"How
many?"
Grosvenor Square, London.
St Aubyn's Court, Shrewsbury.
"Yes; again and again — in
dreams. And always in the same way, and with the same look. He stands
before me, beckoning to me, and making signs that I should come and help
him. Not once or twice only, but many times, night after night I have seen
the same thing!"
A
GHOST STORY
"But" said I, "the
master of the house doesn't know me. I am a stranger here altogether."
All round was gloomy and
silent as a sepulchre, save that every now and then the loosened boards
creaked beneath my tread, or some little misanthropical animal, startled
from his hermitage by the unwonted sound of my steps, hurried across the
passage, making as he went a tiny trail in the thick furry dust. Several
galleries branched off from the mainway like tributary streams, but I preferred
to steer my course down the central corridor, which finally conducted me
to a large antique-looking apartment with carved wainscot and curious old
paintings on the panelled walls. I put the candle upon a table which stood
in the centre of the room, and standing beside it, took a general survey.
There was an old mouldy-looking bookcase in one corner of the chamber,
with some old mouldy books packed closely together on a few of its shelves.
This piece of furniture was hollowed out, crescent-wise, at the base,
and partially concealed a carved oaken door, which had evidently in former
times been the means of communication with an adjoining apartment.
Prompted by curiosity, I took down and opened a few of the nearest
books on the shelves before me. They proved to be some of the very
earliest volumes of the Spectator, — books of considerable interest
to me, — and in ten minutes I was quite absorbed in an article by one
of our most noted masters of literature. I drew one of the queer high-backed
chairs scattered about the room, towards the table, and sat down to enjoy
a feast of reason and a flow of soul. As I turned the mildewed page,
something suddenly fell with a dull flop upon the paper. It
was a drop of
blood ! I stared at it with a strange sensation of mingled horror
and astonishment. Could it have been upon the page before I turned it
? No; it was wet and bright, [Page
122] and
presented the uneven, broken disc which drops of liquid always possess when
they fall from a considerable height. Besides I had heard and seen it fall.
I put the book down on the table and looked upward at the ceiling. There
was nothing visible there save the grey dirt of years. I looked closely at
the hideous blotch, and saw it rapidly soaking and widening its way into
the paper, already softened with age. As, of course, after this incident
I was not inclined to continue my studies of Addison and Steele, I shut the
volume and replaced it on the shelves. Turning back towards the table to
take up my candle, my eyes rested upon a full-length portrait immediately
facing the bookcase. It was that of a young and handsome woman with glossy
black hair coiled round her head, but, I thought, with something repulsive
in the proud, stony face and shadowed eyes. I raised the light above my head
to get a better view of the painting. As I did this, it seemed to me that
the countenance of the figure changed, or rather that a Thing came between
me and it. It was a momentary distortion, as though a gust of wind had passed
across the portrait and disturbed the outline of the features; the how and
the why I know not but the face changed; nor shall I ever forget the sudden
horror of the look it assumed. It was like that face of phantom ghastliness
that we see sometimes in the delirium of fever, — the face that meets
us and turns upon us in the mazes of nightmare, with a look that wakes us
in the darkness, and drives the cold sweat out upon our forehead while we
lie still and hold our breath for fear. Man as I was, I shuddered convulsively
from head to foot, and fixed my eyes earnestly on the terrible portrait.
In a minute it was a mere picture again — an inanimate [Page
123] colored
canvas — wearing no expression upon its painted features save that
which the artist had given to it nearly a century ago. I thought then that
the strange appearance I had witnessed was probably the effect of the fitful
candle-light, or an illusion of my own vision; but now I believe otherwise.
Seeing nothing further unusual in the picture, I turned my back upon it,
and made a few steps towards the door, intending to quit this mysterious
chamber of horrors, when a third and more hideous phenomenon riveted
me to the spot where I stood; for, as I looked towards the oaken door in
the corner, I became aware of something slowly filtering from beneath it,
and creeping towards me. O heaven ! I had not long to look to know what that
something was: — it was blood, — red, thick, stealthy ! On it
came, winding its way in a frightful stream into the room, soddening the
rich carpet, and lying presently in a black pool at my feet. It had trickled
in from the adjoining chamber, that chamber the entrance to which was closed
by the bookcase. There were some great volumes on the ground before the
door, — volumes which I had noticed when I entered the room, on account
of the thick dust with which they were surrounded. They were lying now in
a pool of stagnant blood. It would be utterly impossible for me to attempt
to describe my sensations at that minute. I was not capable of feeling any
distinct emotion. My brain seemed oppressed, I could scarcely
breathe — scarcely move. I watched the dreadful stream oozing drowsily
through the crevices of the mouldy, rotting woodwork — bulging out
in great beads like raindrops on the sides of the door — trickling
noiselessly down the knots of the carved oak. Still I stood and watched it,
and it crept on slowly, slowly, like a living thing, [Page
124] and
growing as it came, to my very feet. I cannot say how long I might have stood
there, fascinated by it, had not something suddenly occurred to startle me
into my senses again; for full upon the back of my right hand fell, with
a sullen, heavy sound, a second drop of blood. It stung and burnt my flesh
like molten lead, and the sharp, sudden pain it gave me shot up my arm and
shoulder, and seemed in an instant to mount into my brain and pervade my
whole being. I turned and fled from the terrible place with a shrill cry
that rang through the empty corridors and ghostly rooms like nothing human.
I did not recognise it for my own voice, so strange it was, — so totally
unlike its accustomed sound; and now, when I recall it, I am disposed to
think it was surely not the cry of living mortal, but of that unknown Thing
that passed before the portrait, and that stood beside me even then in the
lonely room. Certain I am that the echoes of that cry had in them something
inexpressibly fiendish, and through the deathly gloom of the mansion they
came back, reverberated and repeated from a hundred invisible corners and
galleries. Now, I had to pass, on my return, a long, broad window that lighted
the principal staircase. This window had neither shutters nor blind, and
was composed of those small square panes that were in vogue a century ago.
As I went by it, I threw a hasty, appalled glance behind me, and distinctly
saw, even through the blurred and dirty glass, the figures of two women,
one pursuing the other over the thick white snow outside. In the rapid view
I had of them, I observed only that the first carried something in her hand
that looked like a pistol, and her long black hair streamed behind her, showing
darkly against the dead whiteness of the landscape. The arms of her pursuer [Page
125] were outstretched, as though
she were calling to her companion to stop; but perfect as was the silence
of the night, and close as the figures seemed to be, I heard no sound of
a voice. Next I came to a second and smaller window which had been once boarded
up, but with lapse of time the plank had loosened and partly fallen, and
here I paused a moment to look out. It still snowed slightly, but there was
a clear moon, sufficient to throw a ghastly light upon the outside objects
nearest to me. With the sleeve of my coat I rubbed away the dust and cobwebs
which overhung the glass, and peered out. The two women were still hurrying
onward, but the distance between them was considerably lessened. And now
for the first time a peculiarity about them struck me. It was this, that
the figures were not substantial; they flickered and waved precisely like
flames, as they ran. As I gazed at them the foremost turned her head to
look at the woman behind her, and as she did so, stumbled, fell, and disappeared.
She seemed to have suddenly dropped down a precipice, so quickly and so
completely she vanished. The other figure stopped, wrung its hands
wildly, and presently turned and fled in the direction of the park-gates,
and was soon lost in the obscurity of
the distance. The sights I had just witnessed in the panelled chamber had
not been of a nature to inspire courage in any one, and I must candidly confess
that my knees actually shook and my teeth rattled as I left the window and
darted up the solitary passage to the baize door at the top of it. Would
I had never unlocked that door ! Would that the key had been lost, or that
I had never set foot in this abominable house! Hastily I refastened the door,
hung up the rusty key in its niche, and rushed into my own room, where I
dropped into a chair with a [Page
126] deadly
faintness creeping over me. I looked at my hand, where the clot of blood
had fallen. It seemed to have burnt its way into my flesh, for it no longer
appeared on the surface, but, where it had been was a round, purple mark,
with an outer ring, like the scar of a burn. That scar is on my hand now,
and I suppose will be there all my life. I looked at my watch, which I had
left behind on the mantelpiece. It was five minutes past twelve. Should I
go to bed? I stirred the sinking fire into a blaze, and looked anxiously
at my candle. Neither fire nor candles, I perceived, would last much longer.
Before long both would be expended, and I should be in darkness. In darkness,
and alone in that house. The bare idea of a night passed in such solitude
was terrible to me. I tried to laugh at my fears, and reproached myself with
weakness and cowardice. I reverted to the stereotyped method of consolation
under circumstances of this description, and strove to persuade myself that,
being guiltless, I had no cause to fear the powers of evil. But in vain.
Trembling from head to foot, I raked together the smoldering embers in the
stove for the last time, wrapped my railway rug around me — for I dared
not undress — and
threw myself on the bed, where I lay sleepless until the dawn. But oh, what
I endured all those weary hours no human creature can imagine. I watched
the last sparks of the fire die out, one by one, and heard the ashes slide
and drop slowly upon the hearth. I watched the flame of the candle flare
up and sink again a dozen times, and then at last expire, leaving me in utter
darkness and silence. I fancied, ever and anon, that I could distinguish
the sound of phantom feet coming down the corridor towards my room, and that
the mysterious Presence I had encountered in the [Page
127] paneled
chamber stood at my bedside looking at me, or that a stealthy hand touched
mine. I felt the sweat upon my forehead, but I dared not move to wipe it
away. I thought of people whose hair had turned white through terror in a
few brief hours, and wondered what colour mine would be in the morning. And
when at last — at last — the first grey glimmer of that morning
peered through the window-blind, I hailed its appearance with much the same
emotions as, no doubt, a traveller fainting with thirst in a desert would
experience upon descrying a watery oasis in the midst of the burning sands.
Long before the sun arose, I leapt from my couch, and having made a hasty
toilette, I sallied out into the bleak, frosty air. It revived me at once,
and brought new courage into my heart. Looking at the whitened expanse of
lawn where last night I had seen the two women running, I could detect no
sign of footmarks in the snow. The whole lawn presented an unbroken surface
of sparkling crystals. I walked down the drive to the lodge. The old man,
evidently an early bird, was in the act of unbarring his door as I appeared.
"Do
you understand French well, monsieur ? "
"Phil! Phil!" she said. " what
have you done ? what has happened ? Speak to me!"
JULIA
LORRINGTON.
"Thinking it my duty, as
pastor of the village, to make myself acquainted with this poor creature,
who had thus become one of my flock, I went occasionally to visit her, in
the hope that I might possibly discover the cause of her strange disorder
(which I suspected had its origin in some calamity of her earlier days),
and so qualify myself [Page
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afford her the advice and comfort she might need. During the first two or
three visits I paid her I could elicit nothing. She sat still as a statue,
and watched me sullenly while I spoke to her of the mysteries and consolations
of our faith, exhorting her vainly to make confession and obtain that peace
of heart and mind which the sacrament of penance could alone bestow. Well,
it chanced that on the occasion of one of these visits I took with me, besides
my prayer-book, a small sheet of paper, on which I had written a few passages
of Scripture, such as I conjectured to be most suited to her soul's necessity.
I found her, as usual, moody and reserved, until I drew from my missal the
sheet of transcribed texts and put it into her hand. In an instant her manner
changed. The madness gleamed in her eyes, and she began searching nervously
for a pencil. 'I can do it!' she cried. 'My writing was always like hers,
for we learnt together when we were children. He will never know I wrote
it; we shall dupe him easily. Already I have practised her signature many
times — soon I shall be able to make it exactly like her own hand.
And I shall tell her, my lady, that he would have deceived her, that I overheard
him love-making to another girl — that I discovered his falsehood — his
baseness — and that he fled in his shame from the county. Yes, yes,
we will dupe them both.'
" 'No bribe, father," she
answered. ' Do you believe I would have done what I did for mere coin? "
Then I shook hands with
M. Pierre, and we parted. And after that, reader, I went to my friend's
house, and spent my Christmas week right merrily.
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